I know me screaming at her wasn't a good idea, but I couldn't control my anger; she was so full of bullshit. Her head was filled with nonsensical facts and blurred ideas.
"Can't you just respect my decision?" she asks me.
"No!" I shout at her again.
"You've got to let go Caivanial..." she tries to calm me down but I couldn't be bothered. "I saved you Alex, more times than you can count. I will always protect you and take care of you..." "I'm not your puppy to take care of..."
"You're not a dog! You're my angel damnit!"
The words sound so wrong and I couldn't help but want to whack my head on the steering wheel. "I need you Alex..."
"Why?! What can I possibly give you?" "It's just you. I told you before. You give me strength, confidence to face anything. I'm living only because of you. If you weren't here, I would've just killed myself." I tell her bluntly and her minds becomes dim.
I just confessed to suicide.
"Any other girl can..." she tries to fight back, "No. I connect with you. I feel safe with you. I know that I can trust you." I argue.
I step on the breaks quickly then and extend my arm out to stop her from falling in front. We're already at her home but I wasn't finished, so I lock the doors.
"Alex, just let me in..." I tell her.
She wipes her face hard and leans forward. She places her head on the dashboard and covers her face with her palms. She feels everything is wrong with this, that having a relationship with me is bonkers but deep down, she knows she cares for me.
"Alex, I'm not letting you go in without an answer." I tell her.
"WHAT ANSWER?! You only want to hear the answer that you want to hear. For me to tell you that I love you and all that other crap, but I don't." she says with tears.
"You're crying Alex. You're hurting yourself."
"You're hurting me!" she screams and hits me on my shoulder. "Let me out now!" she yells again. "NO!" I argue back.
"Let me out..." she says with more fury, but I don't give in.
She's determined to get out, so much that she leans over to my side to unlock the door. I grab her hands and try to push them away but alas, I know she'd become frantic if I continue this charade.
"I'm coming in." "No you're not!" she shouts at me as I follow behind her.
"I'm not leaving..." I tell her. "I am!" she yells and walks away from me. She climbs up her porch and unlocks the door.
I'm faster. Before she closes the door from the inside, I'm already behind her.
She gets a shock at my immediate speed that she wants to slap me. Her hands are set and already coming at me, but I grab hold of her wrist and pull them up to the door.
"Let go of me!" "No!" I tell her as I keep her positioned.
"I want you to spit it out Alex. Tell me what you exactly feel."
"I feel nothing for you Caivanial! Absolutely nothing!" she shouts at me.
"Don't lie to yourself Alex! Don't keep on lying! You've got nothing against me. Just because I'm a demon, doesn't mean I'm less of a human. I have feelings, a heart, a soul..."
"You're evil..." "Evil in a way to protect. If I wasn't here, you'd be good as dead." I tell her and I bite my tongue for saying it.
The thought of her dying kills me, like having my heart stabbed a million times.
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bluebird WRATH
RomanceShe's attacked by her crush, only to be saved by the boy she deemed a stalker, Caivanial. As a friendship begins, she tries to end it when newcomer Damien arrives at Quilfren. With a building murder case against her and her only two friends harborin...
