compendium | bts x lovelyz

38 | mikrokosmos

A/N: Before anything else, stream boy with luv and persona (spotify, apple music, itunes, melon, etc.)!!

He feels small in this damn big world.

He has everything. The career. The wealth. All the glamour in the world. But will all those matter when the one he truly needs and wants isn't there with him? No, it won't. He's sure it won't.

Funny how everyone thinks he is big among everyone, yet he feels so small.

Running his hands through his hair, Taehyung sighs for the hundredth time. He feels them once again. The feelings he doesn't want to feel ever again.

Loneliness. Emptiness. Pain. Pathetic.

People will probably get shock if they ever find out that the young top actor is feeling all these. Of course, the latter made sure to build his image into happy-go-lucky but serious actor. He wants the general public to view him as friendly and at the same time, a respectable public figure.

Isn't that what they all do? Making everyone think they are all fine and that they don't have any problems when in fact, it's the complete opposite. 

In his case, it hits deeper than that.

Walking towards the glass window of his hotel room, he looks at the view in front of him glowing under the night light. He lets out a bitter chuckle. Oh, how ironic it is that under the spotlight he is the most shining star, but outside it, he is nothing but a dark speck of dust that has little hope in himself.

Plopping into his king sized bed, he grabs his phone and stares at it blankly. When has he felt this way? He feels as if the void inside him is getting bigger. The loneliness is eating him inside.

In that lone hotel room, Taehyung feels it suffocating him. He has the sudden urge to get away and never look back. He scoffs, thinking his mind is crazy. 

As if I can do that.

He rose up as he blankly stares in front of him. He realizes how dull and mundane his life is without the flashing of cameras, the sparkly suits, the scripts that make him think that for a moment his life is in color and not monotonous. 

Taehyung grabs his jacket and cap before walking towards the door and when he finally opens it, the vibrant color of the environment welcomes him. Involuntarily, he smiles. Then after a few seconds, it all died down into their soulless state. With that, his once hopeful smile turns to a lifeless one.

Finally out of the hotel and into the busy streets, he forces himself to feel excitement. For once, he wants to feel a positive energy in him even just for tonight. That's all. He wants to bring back his old self for one night and he swear he'll try his hardest to bring him back.

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He walks down the busy street of New York with his eyes on the ground, his hands down on his pockets, not wanting to attract anyone's attention. He continues to walk aimlessly when something stops him. A voice. An attractive one.

He finally looks up and turns his head towards the sound of it. A few feet away from him, a young woman is passionately singing as she strums her guitar. No one even stops just to listen to her, instead, they move on with their busy lives. 

As Taehyung starts to walk towards her, he notices that even without appreciation from the people, she still happily sings her heart out with her guitar. He stops a mere feet away from her, just standing there listening to her voice. 

When she finally ends the song with a smile on her face, the young man beside her claps, a grin plastering his face. The woman jumps in shock when she hears his applause. Looking up at him with visible red cheeks and a shy demeanor, she stands up and bows.