compendium | bts x lovelyz

63 | the end.

❝𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘯𝘥?❞

❝𝒊𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆.❞

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No one knew it but them.

The secret that they were eager to hide from anyone and everyone. It was that secret that also made them burn out.

Jeon Jeongguk and Jeong Yein.

Two of the most talented and brilliant idols of our generation. Who would've thought they had a secret that was hidden from our curious eyes? 

No one knew that these two idols were dating, except those who were really close to them. For years,—three long years to be exact—they had been constantly looking behind their backs, making sure that no one followed them when they were together. They would check if there were eyes that recognized them before they would walk out together hand in hand.

It was...tiring, to be honest as they couldn't enjoy their time together because of the fear inside them. Fear that they would be caught. That the bliss would end.

But, they were more bliss in their relationship. Whenever they would promote together or attend year-end festivals together, they would visit each other's waiting room and spend time with each other, away from the gaze of everyone. When they both have the same day-off, they would go on trips together or sometimes, with their members. When the night came, Jungkook would drive the car as Yein sat silently beside him while clutching his right hand gently. They would also go to his own apartment to spend some quite time with each other and make love for hours. 

When either of them was away on tour, they would always video call and mutter words like, 'I wish you were here'. When one of them was down, the other would quickly go comfort, and vice versa. When they fought, they'd always resolve it before going to sleep.

Despite their busy schedules, they would still find time to meet each other. Whether it would be at late night, even if they were both tired and exhausted from their job, they would still try to be together.

But, the ecstasy of their relationship was probably just a fantasy.

"Baby, tell me. I'm not some psychic here to quickly know what you're thinking right now," Jungkook exasperatedly said as he followed her to her room. 

Jiae and Jisoo looked at him in pity when they saw him follow her like a lost puppy.

Once inside, Yein ignored him and walked straight to her closet and busied herself on finding clothes. Jungkook felt annoyance when he saw her doing this.

"Yein, please! What did I do wrong? You can't just ignore me."

Still no answer. Not even a nod of her head.

Getting impatient, he strode towards her and encircled his arms around her. "Please, baby. Why are you getting mad? Is it because I was too busy?" he asked her soothingly, but she shrugged him off.

Jungkook sighed. "Yein, if you're mad at me for no absolute reason, then tell me! Tell me that you're mad at me, don't make me look like a fool!"

Yein was now arranging her clothes, still ignoring him. 

He grabbed her hand before saying, "If you're angry, then hurt me. Just fucking hurt me! Don't give me the silent treatment."

She harshly pulled back her arm. He ran his fingers through his hair in annoyance.

"Yein, for the love of God, just fucking tell me what I did—"

"I'm fucking tired of this!" she snapped, looking at him with tears in her eyes. "I'm so tired of everything!"

Jungkook looked at her with worried eyes. He was about to wipe her tears away, but she flinched back.

"I'm fucking tired of worrying everyday wondering if we'd ever get caught. I'm fucking tired of getting scared that I'm not good enough for you, even though you keep on saying the opposite. I'm fucking tired of feeling so bad whenever I see my fans and your fans. I'm fucking tired of worrying that one day, they would discover everything and I would be the cause of our group's downfall. I'm fucking tired of us fighting. I'm so fucking tired of living everyday knowing that this thing between us will inevitably end," she said as she sobbed in front of him. 

Jungkook's eyes glittered with tears. His eyes that resembled her galaxy was now just filled with pain.

Yein tried to calm herself, but failed as more tears still fell down her cheeks. The cheeks he oh so loved to kiss whenever he could, now soaked with tears. 

"I'm tired, Jungkook. I'm tired of fighting for us," she finally said, her eyes on the ground.

He blinked as tears freely cascaded down his cheeks. His chest constricted. 

"Is that what you're feeling?" he softly asked.

Yein nodded, still sobbing.

"S-So, we sh-should...b-break up? I-Is that what you are s-saying?" he tried to speak more, but the pain he felt in his chest was unbearable.

Before, when she did the small things, his heart would constrict in a good way. But now, it was hurting him. So much.

Yein stilled when he asked those words. The world froze. 

With heart breaking, she replied, "I-I...No, I-I don't know."

"Do you want me to...l-leave?" he brokenly asked her.

She looked up at him, finding him crying. It broke her heart. She didn't want him to cry. She just wanted to let out her frustrations, but...

"Y-Yes." Just for now. Please.

And he did.

a/n: IM SO SORRY FOR THIS!!! I LOVE YALL