Daughter of a Gun ➟ Reece Bibby ✔

chapter thirty six

Narrator's POV

It's been about 3 months since Lexi and Blake have been dating and since everyone found out that she is Reece's sister. Things seemed to be fine between them but it was just a mask that Blake used to hide what he was really feeling. It took him about a month to realise that he wasn't actually feeling anything but physical attraction to her and no actual love as he kept lying to her.
He didn't want to hurt her in any way especially because he would've gotten in trouble with Reece but he also wanted her to know what he really felt. Blake wasn't really a man of words. He usually expressed all that he felt through his actions and that's what he did this time as well.

Blake's POV

Maybe it wasn't the best decision I've made and I'm not proud of it either. I didn't want to be the one to break up with her so I had to give her a reason to do it herself. In other words I cheated on her. When she ended up finding out I didn't even know how was I going to face her.
"I know what you've done, you fucking moron!" she screamed at my face. I deserved every part of it. "You knew exactly how you felt about me and you did nothing but drag this hell of a relationship after you!" she added, still screaming. I was indeed an asshole. I led her into believing that I loved her when for me, she was nothing but a fuck buddy. I knew that it hurt her but I swear that I couldn't find my words to tell her. Every time I tried to talk to her and explain, only lies escaped my mouth. It was like the painful truth was buried deep down into my gut and there was no way I could have gotten it out. "I wish I could say that you're wrong, but you're not. You're perfectly right. We were wrong for each other from the very start but I refused to admit it. I am a selfish asshole. That's what I am and you have all the reasons in the world to beat the devil out of me right now." I said, not being able to face her. Long ago I used to get mad at people that treated Freya like shit. Now I am mad at myself for treating another girl like an object. I've always been like this and what hurts the most is that I can't change. I've tried and I thought that being with Lexi could help me change. Looks like the selfish prick that I am still couldn't change. I didn't even know how was I supposed to face Reece after this. How was I going to face Freya. How was I going to even show my face on the streets. "I really wish you were dead right now!" she exclaimed, running away and slamming the front door after her. Those words hit me like thousands of knives that cut through my exposed flesh. And she was right. Unfortunately way too right for me to even be able to argue. She was gone now. Forever and ever out of my life. But I didn't know how to feel: relieved that we finally ended this relationship or angry at myself for the way we ended it.