Daughter of a Gun ➟ Reece Bibby ✔

chapter fourty four

Richard drove me home but I decided that I would better go spend some time with Lexi. I was still feeling awful so I couldn't drive. Her house wasn't that far so I decided to walk there. Right when I got out of the house the rain had started. I didn't mind it; it fit my shit mood. The sound of the pouring rain was so loud that I could hear it through my headphones even though my music was loud. I texted Lexi to let her know that I was on my way to her place and she asked me if I could get her a pack of cigarettes. I went to the closest store and got two packs: one for her and one only God knows why for me. I lit one up as I came out of the store. It's been 2 solid years since I had properly smoked but I could see myself getting back to it. My life was getting shittier and my thoughts were heavier. I needed something to help me escape; the same thing that 'helped' me years ago. I let the smoke escape my lips as I was walking through the rain. The edges of Lexi's house were finally visible and that made me feel relieved that I was getting closer because I was already getting tired. The rain stopped by the time I arrived in front of her house. I finished that damned cigarette right then, threw the stub on the still wet pavement and stepped on it. I went up to the front door and knocked on it. She opened it with an unexpectedly big smile on her beautiful face. "Come in!" she said as she dragged me inside. She closed the door and hugged me: something she hasn't done in a long time. "Is everything alright, Lex?" I asked her. "Yeah, why wouldn't it be?" she asked back, still smiling. "You don't hug me. Never. Or show affection whatsoever. So, what happened?" I told her on a serious note. "Nothing, jeez. Can't I just be happy to see you for once?" she said. I refused to believe her. "Okay, let's say I believe you. But why would you be happy to see me? I'm the worst fucking company." I said. "Lies!" she disagreed. "Actually, the fact that you keep visiting me is a blessing. I wouldn't be able to stay more than a day alone. And your presence here is just great." she added. Those words were very hard to believe. "Why are you happier to see me now than you were when I was your boyfriend?"I asked taking a seat on the sofa. "Because now, I see that you care about me. Back then, you didn't." she said sitting next to me. She got closer to me and put her head on my shoulder. "I missed this." she said as she cuddled next to my side. It was in fact a nice feeling: having someone so close to you that you can hear their heartbeat. I put my hand around her and held her like that for a couple of minutes. "I'm sorry for treating you the worst way one could treat another. You were right: I am a terrible person." I apologised to her. "No need for apologies, Blakey. I deserved all of it. We treated each other badly but here we are, back at it again." she said looking into my eyes. Her gorgeous piercing ice blue eyes were staring me down like she wanted to kill me with them. I felt a weird urge to kiss her but I blew that thought away quickly. But not quickly enough before she did it. We were thinking about the same thing but she actually had the guts to do it. She was always the brave one and that's why I was so attracted to her. Her lips touching mine was a feeling long forgotten but it brought back so many good memories. The last thing I wanted in that moment was to pull away. Outside it started to rain again and a loud thunder scared her and she pulled away for a second. When she eventually calmed down she looked at me smiling "I have no idea why we had to treat each other like rubbish when it's so obvious that we belong together." she said as she pressed a final little kiss to my lips and cuddled back into my arms.