A Little Bit Quirky

Chapter 42: Acceptance

A.N: Thanks for all the support and hope you enjoy this chapter!
The vid is Eugene Lee Yang's coming out video.
I'm sure you've already seen this, but it's just so amazing I wanted to include it in this chapter.
I'm so sorry for the wait but I'm a lot busier now. Each update may take a while but I won't be going on hiatus or anything. I'll keep updating!

Katsuki's P.O.V:
The scariest part is I'm not even surprised.

It was a slow build-up to the realisation. My mind had dropped so many hints and I'd even somewhat admitted it to myself.
There was always questions floating about in my head. Could it be...?
Is it him....? What does this mean...?
Finally, I have my answer.

I'm gay.

I've never been attracted to girls before, but I've studied men. Viewed them as opponents, objects to compete against. I'd analyse their muscles and strengths and weaknesses and see how I could best them. For all these years, what had I been trying to defeat?
My feelings?
There was no way. How could I not have known? I mean I'm straight. Everyone is.
It's just how it is.
But that isn't exactly right is it? There are always contradictions. Even I'm a contradiction: a villain-like hero.
And Izuku?
Well he was the biggest contradiction of them all.

A quirkless hero.

Didn't that just scream tabloid headlines? It's the kind of stuff you could never believe. Just like me being not entirely straight.
But Izuku's headline is true.
What does that make mine?
I can picture it now; one of the biggest scandals in all of Japan; a defiance of nature; a wrong that could never be undone.

Katsuki Bakugo, the number one hero is in fact gay!!!!

Somehow, I don't care.
Its as if a great weight has been lifted from me, a knot inside of me finally coming undone.
Its not as if I'm happy, who could be happy about being different, standing out.
But I'm.... Relieved?
Weightless.

Staring after Deku's retreating form, I have the strangest urge not to follow him for once.
For the moment, we need to figure things out.

Seperately.

With great force, I stop my legs from moving, stop the thoughts of chasing after him and turn on my heel.
"Uraraka." The girl jolts, guilty expressionism turning lost frightened at the use of her name. "I... I didn't meant to. I swear.... I was just...."
"I'd love to say something now." I begin, the seemingly bottomless well of anger in me already overflowing. Still, I power through calmly.
"You have no idea how much I'd love to do a lot more than just curse you out for making Deku cry. But I've done worse, said worse...."
I give her a smirk. "Apologise. He'll forgive you."
She bows her head. "Are you sure? I said something.... Horrible and I-"
"Doesn't matter. He'll forgive you. He'll forgive anyone." Shoving my hands into my pockets, I slouch and walk in the opposite direction of the one person in the world who had ever truly seen me for who I was.

"He's a hero after all."

***

My hand shakes as I reach to unlock the door to my house and I pause.
I can't understand it.

Why am I so afraid?

Shutting my eyes, I clench my trembling fist, the jagged key edge digging into my palm and unlock the door. Stepping into the entryway, I burrow into my hoodie and close the door behind me. It takes me a minute to remember what I usually said upon entering and when I do, the words come out quieter than usual.