My 2019 Poems

087

Note: August 26, 2019.

The inside of me

she told me to be the best
so i did
i put all of my efforts to be the best
yet she didn't notice it

she told me to look my best
so i did
i used all of the products that would make me my best
but she still told me that i looked ugly

she told me to do this and that
so i did
i did this and that
but she asked me why did i tho that and this

she told me to be the epitome of perfection
so i did
i researched and did my best
but she asked me why am i not like my cousin

and i told myself
“you're the best”
“you can do it”
and then again, she dragged me down

she kept on pulling me down
while i was pushing myself to the top
and so i decided
to join her down

i tied the rope in my neck
and got off the chair i was standing in
then a tear fell from my eye
when i heard her say,
“i'm proud of you”