My 2019 Poems

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Note: September 2, 2019

Zigzagged Life Of Decisions

          at first, i wanted this
          to be this for i admired and was curious
          not thinking, if i was suited
          or capable of being this
         
          second time, i tried this
          now thought of the requirements and
          consequences
          yet i did not think
          if this is what i really wanted
         
          third time's a charm, as we say
          i thought fully of everything in everyway
          possible
          but then again, i realized
          will i be successful in this?
         
          fourth time, i say again
          now confused of what i really wanted to do
          just full of regret,
          for i didn't focus on what i really dreamt of
         
          fifth time, maybe the last
          for i lost grip of what my future holds
          now being that, "come what may"
          after that, "follow what you really want"