FALLIN' ALL IN YOU (Completed)

Chapter 72

Arthit's POV

Krystal and I are sitting in our mother's room. Luckily, the doctor was able to stabilize mom from shock due to her internal bleeding. However, she has yet to wake up, and probably won't for a while.

I'm sitting bedside her, and as tired as I am, I don't want to fall asleep. I'm too afraid that something might happen to her if I fell asleep.

Krystal has actually just fallen asleep in the armchair behind me. She looks so pale and tired. I had put my jacket over her.

I turned back to look at my mother. Her cheeks are sunken in, and there's a very visible bruise on the right side below her eye. There's also bruises all over her body. I can't understand why she still stays by our father's side all these years.

How can my father still say he loves my mother when he hurts her like this? I just don't get it. Growing up at home was very confusing. One moment my parents are all lovey dovey, and the next, my mother is begging for mercy.

I have never idolized my father the way Kohl had. I was never close to him. My father had always favored Kohl for being the eldest son, and Krystal for being the only girl. But it never bothered me because I didn't want his attention. I knew very early on that I was not what he expected. After Ian had inadvertently outed me, I had no choice but to admit out loud to my family that I'm gay. I hated Ian so much at that time, but maybe it was inevitable.

I knew my father didn't really care for me, but I never knew he would hate me that much. So much that he would strike my mother for having me. For bringing shame to our family. Not a day went by since I came out, that he didn't beat me or my mother. Sometimes, we both got a beating.

I had to leave because my mother won't. If I didn't leave, not only would I suffer, but my mother would too. Over the years, I've only kept in contact with Krystal. Only through Krystal, I was able to know anything about my mother. I've missed my mother dearly, but after learning what had happened to her when she attempted to visit me has kept me away.

However, even with me being gone. My father's behavior has only gotten worse. Someone in the neighborhood had called the police on my father before, but my mother refused to press charges or testify against him. So, it's just useless. Also, the local police officers are chummy with my father since he is a retired officer. So, now everyone just turns a blind eye from the situation. It's like a broken record that keeps playing.

My eyes are tired and dry. Even pressing and squeezing them together give very little relief. The hard plastic chair I'm sitting on makes my back hurt. I wish this was just a nightmare that I can just wake up from. I know it's selfish, but I wish I was in bed now curled up with Kongpob. He should have woken up already by now, and will probably call me within the next hour.

I don't know what to say to him. There's a lot about my family, and my past that I haven't told him about yet. I mean, I haven't gotten to yet. Our relationship is still so new. I didn't want to leave the blissful bubble yet. My past is like Pandora's box. It's not meant to be opened. As hard as it is to believe, my life with my ex was still a million times better than what it was like at home.

So, life with Kongpob is like a dream. Would it be terrible to admit that I don't want Kongpob to know about my past and my family? The way Kongpob sees me is so perfect, that I started to believe it too. He makes me feel good about myself, and that it's okay to be me. The way he talks and shares with me his work makes me feel like he really values my opinions, and makes me feel like equals. The way he looks over some of my work, and comments on it makes me feel like he really cares, and supports me. These are things I never had before.

What if my family's situation changes things between us? I'm afraid he will lose that sparkle in his eyes when he looks at me after learning about my family's dark secrets. Maybe he will think all this isn't worth his time. No. That's not it. If anything, Kongpob will try to fix things for me. And he probably can, but I don't want him to.