The Unpaid Therapist!

Chapter 6;

Win

I quietly listen to then talking about a lot of stuff, I don't know how they do that but they seems so joyous about everything, I wish my life was like that. "Masaya at walang problema, isang bagay na sandali ko lang naranasan." I whisper to myself, I want to live a worry free life pero iba ang binigay sakin. 

I didn't hear it but biglang nag bago yung mood ni Shannon yung binanggit niya yung tungkol dun sa isang girl, I don't know... Girlfriend siguro ni Clark? They seems very interested in that topic but at the same time they don't look happy at all, "Yes, she's lucky. Inaantay siya ni Clark at hindi pinaalis! Nililigawan ba siya ni Clark? Maybe, I don't care at all." Pag-papatuloy naman ni Blair.

"What her name again? I think I already forgot, ang tagal na din kase nating iniiwasan pag-usapan yan." Si Maddie.

"Aimee? I guess... I don't really want to say it, I feel like my mouth is sinful." My forehead creased pero pinili ko na lang na manahimik at hindi makielam sakanila.  "Huh? Eh yung bagong girl ni Topaz, Aimee din yung name ah. Luna would be so furious!"

"Well, yung girl ni Clark sa Brazil nasa Brazil na yun ngayon, did you forget? Why are we even talking about this again? This is making my blood boil."

"Ah yeah. Sorry."

I frowned, I'm missing a lot ang dami-dami nilang pinag-uusapan hindi ako maka-sunod! But according to their stories, Clark is waiting for a girl who is currently living in Brazil, Luke is involved to a new girl named Aimee, that's weird he must be really good looking. Based on what they say kung hindi Poll yung name, Luna naman minsan. 

I was trying to recall their stories when the thought came into my mind, I can't help but to be envious about how they live their life... They seem so happy, they seem to be having fun living their life. A-and I wish I could live my life that way too, but it was just too impossible. 

At least that's what I think. 

I have a lot of questions to ask to God, if there is a God. Mama Clara say's that my parents is a big believer of God, then why? Why there are people who is living a worry free life, and why there are other people who just can't? 

Kase kung makakapili ako kung anong klase ng buhay ako mamumulat pipili ako ng iba, basta hindi eto. I want to move forward just what like the other people around me do, but for me it seems... impossible. 

I can see them laughing about random things, and I just wish I can turn back time, yung panhong masaya pa din talaga ang gusto ko. Ayokong sumaya ng wala sila, ayokong sumaya kasama ang mga bagong nakilala ko, I want the same old person in my life... 

I want my Mommy, Daddy, Ate Ilya, Papa Tiago and... Harkin.

Ang mas masakit, may mga bagay talaga na wala ka ng magagawa kundi tanggapin. "OMG!!!!" Blair exclaimed. Blair caught our attention, we look at her and she looks really.. excited. And I hate that look in her face.