Watch Me Fall

Maybe next time (edited!)

Fuck. 

I don't wanna be here, but I know this will help me get through this shit.

Itś my fault anyways. 

Iḿ not asking for you to come back, for you to love me, but just fucking tolerate me, because I cant get myself to do it. I know you don't want me around, but you don't understand. You never will know the favor I did for you. And thatś fine.

Iḿ happy if you are.

And besides, iḿ forever alone in this ride. Might as well make the best of it. 

And your silence? It drives me insane. I feel like you do it on purpose...

This was written back in February this year, and so much has changed since then. it's crazy to look back and see how desperate I was for this one person to forgive me and stuff. But now, I could really care less. I did what I needed to do to protect him, and he replaced me. the end. If he loved me he would have seen past his own ego and tried to understand my situation. But here I am, so much stronger in life. :) I am so close to being happy.