Watch Me Fall

"Bold" and "Confident", another K.G chapter

Every time I get to talk to you, another piece of me either comes back, or is something I never knew I had in me. I never thought I'd be so bold to tell you how I felt without just hinting at it and calling it a day. I never thought the day would come where I could be so honest. The biggest surprise was when you didn't reject my words. You didn't say anything was wrong with my dreams, even. I still feel all fuzzy and stuff on the inside when I remember you throwing the "10/10" part back at me. I dunno, it was special. That day, being able to talk to you, actually getting responses, maybe this is what I need to move on. Maybe you're the one to actually be able to free me. no. Wait. Not you. Me. With you, I can free myself, and stop feeling sorry for myself. I'm not saying i'm in love, but  God knows I adore every second around you, because suddenly HE doesn't exist. I don't have to be tormented by him and how he's kinda just been weird and distant. I don't have to blame myself anymore, because suddenly who cares. The closer I get to you, the further the past is. I still struggle, of course, but now i'm starting to be the person I'm meant to be. So whether you are just another lesson for me, or someone i'm meant to be with, give me a chance. That's all I ask. Let me in. I won't do anything stupid, I promise. The fact alone I still have feeling after not seeing you in MONTHS means a lot in my case. With you, Kyle, I can be confident. I dunno what it is, maybe it's because we won't be in school, but I'll actually be able to look into your eyes now. I'm not so scared anymore. Let's face it, you're amazing and I really would love to give this a try. If you feel the same, please say something. otherwise i'm going to spend the rest of August and September wondering. 

I kinda hope you read this, love. I really do.