Watch Me Fall

One day at a time / All I want for Christmas / some random thoughts

I'm taking care of myself the best I can, for you. Maybe that's a lame reason, but hey, we got this far, right? Like i'm telling Sav right now as I type this, it's a miracle we got this far. Like yeah, would I absolutely love to date you? YES! Yet, i'm just happy where we are right now. I treasure what relationship I do have with you. Then again, of course it's going to be limited, due to a screen dividing us. But that's alright, because I'm happy I get to talk to you. I was so scared before, to really say anything. But I feel now that I wouldn't change a thing. I'm happy I said the things I did, because I meant them. I can't wait to spend time with you again. I know I bring it up a lot, so bare with me, here. I'm sorry, by the way. It's safe to say I can't wait for the future. I mean, you'll be at my birthday, and we already know about Christmas*, but I'm down to spend any holiday with you, to be honest. Maybe Halloween if my sister has me go trick or treating for my nephew, I could have you come along, and introduce you to my sister and her boyfriend, and of course, the kids. I already know Gannon would love you. Haha we can sit with him and play cars lol. If only you knew how amazing it is to see those adorable eyes light up when he sees a new car. It's the best feeling in the world. 

*As far as Christmas, though...

I'm so happy you wanna spend it together. I'm definitely down. I've always wanted to walk around Chicago, that would be awesome.  Cuddling and watching movies? Yes, please, any time of the year, actually. Plus any occasion I can steal a hoodie, (especially one of yours) i'm down for. It'll be the perfect day. Just the two of us having a merry ol' Cridmath. Oooh, we gotta have a tree of some sorts. I always wanted to decorate a tree, but my grandmas a Jehovah's Witness, so she kinda just canceled that holiday for us. 

Sitting here, i hope you're sleeping. I hope you're having dreams. Good dreams. No. Great dreams. I hope you fell asleep happy,and  knowing that we're gonna have an amazing rest of this year. We'll be a couple of idiots together and it'll be special.