Watch Me Fall

Don't fade away.

It's no secret I get cold rather easily.  So naturally, sitting here, pull over hoodie and pajama pants, I'm pretty cold still.  I hate to admit it, but I'm in a "I wish I had someone to snuggle" mood, ha. 

Maybe I'm weird, I don't know. I always wonder if I'm like too emotional, and too physically drawn to people. Like, I love hugs and stuff, and I don't know... Anytime I like someone or date someone, I just want physical attention and stuff. I know it's probably pathetic, but like, suddenly all I wanna do is hug them and like cuddle and just stuff like that. Walk up to them and just grab their hand or something. Show affection. Maybe the fact I never got to do that kind of stuff made it worse. None of my relationships got that far, because they were online, or like.. fake.. or just the guy got impatient and left. I want to finally experience all of that. Like, my first kiss, I never got that. Then again, who would have wanted to kiss a girl who giggles at everything and gets nervous over eye contact? Or my first date, that would be amazing. I guess I am just a very emotional person. 

I currently just wish I could snuggle the fuck outta someone. Just like grab a bunch of blankets and like just cuddle and fall asleep or something. I don't know, I just feel very emotional and wish I didn't. I want to feel like loved and stuff. Like I know my friends love me but like..ughhh. I feel like I should shut up, but whatever. It's my book, I can be as emotional as I want to. I just want to feel appreciated and stuff..

I can't wait for the 5th...hopefully Mister perky aint busy cause then I can have him come get me or have Savs mom drop me off at his place and we can watch that movie. I miss him more and more each day. Poor guy having to deal with all of this.

Sorry, Perky. 

You're just too cute.