Watch Me Fall

Love...what is it?

My definition of love:

a person cares deeply for another person enough just to make sure they're okay, and to even take the time to listen and be there, even through rough times. 

I dunno what love really is, but it's confusing. I know there are people in my life that do love me, but now suddenly I got people telling me they like and/or love me and I don't know what to tell them. Right now I can't do the whole relationship thing...I'm working on me. I already said that...yet  I got people telling me they love me and I want them to stop. Nothing against them...they're amazing. J is nice and caring...but I don't know him in real life. A is cool and stuff...but he relies too deeply on me and again he lives states away. I don't understand why these people are trying to grab me..I can't breathe. Years ago I would have loved the attention, but now I just want them to love me as friends. 

Yet here I am still thinking of past matters

One guy who keeps bugging me and comes back to me like a lost puppy 

another guy that I keep running back to because I dont actually know 

And here  I am, stuck like always 

im not gonna choose, okay? I cant right now. There's too much going on.