Watch Me Fall

Another day, another hope.

I spent a while pretty much bawling my eyes out and thanking God for everything happening in my life. I feel..happy. Like I can do this. I'm not alone anymore. I feel really good in life, even with everything happening.

I'm still so happy seeing Adri after almost a year, it was crazy. I know it's only a little bit before I see her again, but like, I miss her. I wish we could do more than play Duty. Soon enough, though. 

Last night, though, was just nice. I layed there, staring at the ceiling, smiling from ear to ear like the grade A moron I am. Just happy for once. All I could do was rant mentally to God about how happy I was. I was in such a great place mentally. 

I just spent a majority of advisory figuring out how to draw this guy. I mean, portraits are always fun for me and stuff, I love trying to draw people. Buuuuuut, right now i'm sitting here like "this looks like a demon boy, not Kyle" I'm trying my best to do this, and hopefully I can figure this out, haha. that's kinda why I asked him to send me a picture, anyways. I need the practice, and plus i'm suddenly not a creep for looking at a picture so often. Win/ win situation here, am I right? Okay, this doesn't look right at all, and the fact i used red pen to cover up the pencil...yikes. Okay, let's think. What number attempt is this so far? I think like the 4th or 5th. Hahahahaha, I'm a loser. I love it. Anyways, I can't wait until 18 days from now with my future collection of attempts to show him. It'll be so embarrassing I can't wait. 

I'm just gonna pretend that didn't happen for now and keep smiling like a moron because i'm so happy.