Watch Me Fall

Words of a savior, thoughts of a fighter

Another morning where I feel like maybe, just maybe, everything is going to be okay. It's only 4 weeks until I can finally do what I want to do. Meanwhile as long as I stay in contact with K.G, I should still be sane by the time I get out. 

Maybe i'm lame, maybe I have issues, but morning like these, even if i'm in as much pain this, make me feel like I can keep fighting and go on. Getting to talk to the people that get me going, it's what I strive for. The silence, it's suddenly gone, and is replaced with words that fill me with hope. It's like for a moment that maybe i'm alive. 

I'm breathing. I even have a heartbeat. It's strange to me. 

Even when we're just being weird, it's nice to have him around. He always says things i'll never forget. Today, him telling me not to change as a person, it hit the feels pretty hard. Someone actually likes who I am. Strange concept, honestly. He's picked me up from this dark place, and the void can't get me when i'm with him. 

Right now, sitting here at the dinner table, typing as fast as my hands can type, I wish he was around. Right now would be the perfect moment for a warm embrace. It's been 5 months since I have seen him. Crazy, huh? You'd think i'd move on, but he's not someone I can move on from. You know, the feelings I developed so many months ago, they've only grown stronger as time passed by.  I love the way he is. I love how we can be serious one second, then we can be like "MF" another moment, then it can be kinda (very) cute (let's face it, he even makes his joke threats cute). 

Anyways, i'm not alone. My fears and my anxieties are silent, because I got someone awesome by my side. Every second with him is another i'll be sane. 

I'm assuming you'll read this, now that you've read everything else. You're my savior, as strange as that may seem. You keep me going, you've built me up and said the things I needed to know/ realize. I'm gonna keep fighting. I'm gonna be victorious.

haha, get it? It's a Skillet song that sums up how I feel in life 

you should check it out.