Watch Me Fall

Nine...

Barely over a week, eh? You're doing great. Just breathe, just think. Just know, it's almost over. The climax of your life is only days away. You must hold on, just a little bit longer, because if you give up now, what have you fought for? What was all that pain and suffering for? This war of yours, it can't be for nothing, it can't. You have grown stronger, no? Have you not challenged worse before? You fought so much on your own, and now, you have people backing you up. They love you, as strange of a concept it may be. They are here to pick you up when you fall down. Don't push them away, because they are all you got. You know you need them, too. You love them as much as they love you, and you know you wouldn't have gotten this far without them. Besides, think of him (like you aren't already?). For a second, just think. He clearly doesn't hate you, Therefore, another insecurity is proven false. Not every crush of yours if going to immediately turn you away. Not everyone is going to leave you. Hold your heart close, and you won't have to worry about another Andrew situation. Be aware of your surroundings and you'll need not ever meet another Julian. Control your feelings, and you'll never have to mess it up again. You got this, and you know it, you're just not thinking right. Only fear holds you back. Only untrue guilt forces your hand. But now, you can get a grip on your life, and change it yourself, with the help of the people with you. 

But remember, you are a Spartan.