Watch Me Fall

What's wrong with this

No matter what happens, I only find reasons why not to get back to before. He doesn't even listen to me at times. I dunno...I feel underappreciated. And the looks iḿ given by him, they make me uncomfortable and gives me cold shivers and goosebumps that I dont like.  I can tell he wants to tell me something, but I do not wanna know what. I feel like somehow this is my fault, but I know all I am trying to do is finally work on me for once. I have to try to make my life about me now...but every day I just avoid fighting with someone. And this person, as great as they are, don't understand that I just want space. I don't like talking about my problems sometimes, and I wish they woulds top taking my silence so personally. He acts like I talk to everyone except him, but its not like that. I use to lie to his friend to make him shut up. SO what? And now as an almost adult, I wanna be independent. I dont need him anymore. I have figured out things he doesnt even know I do know. He needs to respect that I dont live my life for him, as he shouldnt live his life for me. I didnt ask for him to give up on anything. He keeps bringing up the past..but im not like that anymore! I fucked up, so why does he make it his life goal to torment me with it until I die?! I didnt ask to be born, okay?! Why cant he stop caring finally and just move on?! He has life oppurtunities, and its not my fault he ignores them...