Vents Hidden in Verse

balance

A/N: YES SIS, WE STAN SELF EMPOWERMENT. after the hellish night i had yesterday, i'm really feeling myself today. here's to Nattasha, who seems like she just discovered more of herself.

written February 9th, 2020 at 7:20 A.M.

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i want to be matched.
maybe all this time,
i haven't been aiming for perfection.

i want to be matched
with a being
who i can get close to
and create a strong bond with.

is that all i ask?

not exactly.
i want to be matched
with someone who evens the scales,
placing a coin or two at their end
as soon as i place one.

maybe i need to feel appreciated.
is that all i ask?
yes.
yes it is.

i tend to
set the bar so low
that just about anyone
who puts minimal effort in
can pass through the barrier.

as unhealthy as that is,
maybe i felt so unappreciated
that any sign of affection
weakened my knees
and made me fall.

but as the fog clears,
i see through the façade.
your minimal effort
will no longer be tolerated.

in this case,
maybe i'll strengthen my own scale,
keeping my own balance in the middle,
until someone comes along
and tries to match my personal scale.

i have an undying love and appreciation
for a young woman named Nattasha.
i'd like to see you supply
the same amount of love
that i have towards her.

until then, i think i shall remain alone.
thank you, and good night.