Vents Hidden in Verse

birthday wishes

A/N: wow, content?? i turned 15! this was written back on my birthday, i guess i forgot to hit publish 😳

written March 24th, 2020

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fifteen years ago to this day,
a disaster was born.
what is that disaster, you might ask?
why, it's me, your one and only.

today is my day.
the one day in the universe
where things revolve around me.

is this day
designed to stand out among the rest?
majority of times,
i can't help but feel numb
to this idea of getting older.

i must say,
all the attention is rather nice,
but i still don't think
i deserve to be celebrated in such a way.

quaranTEENed nattasha,
what do you wish for?
they're bound to come true,
these beaming hopes of yours.

what do i wish for?
what do i wish for?
what do i wish for?

humble and quiet,
i rarely ask for much
compared to the peers i have.

nonchalant, indifferent,
i shrug my shoulders,
negating any hope
of opinion to input.

so, to still wish but to not want anything,
why not yearn
for the currently impossible?

i want to feel okay,
to march forwards
without doubt in myself
or in the faithfulness of others.

i want to see my friends again,
to hold each and every one of them
and comfort them
to the greatest of my ability.

i want someone
to show that they care about me...
more than anybody else in the world.
my heart craves that feeling,
though my head knows better
than to involve myself in something.

that switchblade of his
must have serrated my heart.

i don't mind that for right now.
today is a day of new beginnings.

i will start off
this new year of my life
prouder and stronger
than ever before.

so much has changed,
and the world will continue to hurl
piles upon piles of change at me.

what do i say?
bring it on.
i stand my ground, planted firmly,
bracing for the new changes to arrive.