Vents Hidden in Verse

everything to nothing

A/N: ...so much has happened. so. much. time to write again!

okay.... so i had a boyfriend? then we broke up? then i got another one? and... it didn't end ideally? and then everything we've known and loved got cancelled by the coronavirus?? this has all happened within the past few days and... god! it's all been so... stupid. just plain stupid. writing vent! the next few pieces will probably be angry/sad, but this is the best way to get feelings out.

written March 14th, 2020 at 2:30 A.M.

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what a shitstorm of a week.

the one thing
i thought to be constant within life
revealed to be
inconstant within himself.

brash and careless,
only uttering words
without their usual filter.

the shift in mentalities
i've needed to make in the past few days
deteriorated me in the process.

i don't know
the extent of what you're going through,
but please allow me
to steal into
that concealed chamber of yours.

"friends" doesn't feel the same way
now that you aren't here
to share it with me.

i did my usual,
i fell too quickly,
but instead of breaking a bone this time,
i think i broke my heart instead.

i can't help but wonder
if you threw that pin back at me
solely to forget the fact that someone
tried to breech the walls you've put up.

who would i be if i never tried?

i have to hand it to you though.

you were my everything
before deciding that you wanted
to feel absolutely nothing.

but i must thank you...
for letting me feel
the best i've felt
in a long while.

even if this is the last time,
i'm glad i got to experience the joy
of loving completely passionately...
just for a while.