Vents Hidden in Verse

"what do you want" reprise

A/N: i've had this idea for a while. man, i feel like i'm writing a musical with this reprise shit. i used this to compare the situation from an earlier work of mine (what do you want) to what is happening to me right now. this is the longest i have ever spent on a piece. it is really important to me. thanks for checking this out :)

finished May 15th, 2020 @ 12:50 P.M.

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what the hell is he doing to me?
giving me his endless light, all for free,
through a rushed, neverending reprise
of all the emotions behind his eyes.

"i love you, Nattasha,
i miss you and more."
find me here,
laying on the floor,

cut open, vulnerable, my heart, it bleeds
excited to see wherever this leads.
"a dream is a wish your heart makes."
if this is a dream, i'll do what it takes.

my happily ever after.
here's how it ends.
i find the perfect guy
and we're more than "just friends."

i see it in his face,
those smoky quartz eyes,
those caring mannerisms
that show no disguise.

he wants me, he wants me,
he calls throughout the day,
he's scared of me leaving,
although there is no way.

commitment, commitment,
honey, let's dance!
we'll hop in the car,
and we'll take a chance.

sodapop, look at me now,
i'm feeling my best.
you once controlled the feelings
pumping out of my chest.

realizing now
how blinded i became,
the word love was said,
the meanings were not the same.

each word out of your mouth
was tinted with deceit,
a throw-away phrase,
promises left uncomplete.

you've taught me so much.
though i didn't have a clue.
now that you're here,
i have a question for you.

"do i look lonely?"
well, not anymore.
he makes me happier
than you did before.

i "fell for men
who weren't how they appeared."
looking back at it,
it all seems clear.

i'm free
from "fallin' all in you."

he sings the lyrics
and means every word.
each line, every song...
sweetest sounds i've heard.

april 12th, april 15th,
about a year apart.
one left me broken,
the other has my heart.

thanks to you, i'm skeptical
of most folks that i meet.
tried to be with him,
but he was just too sweet.

you've made your mark
on my life... on me.
you're in the back of my mind,
almost constantly.

don't know where you are now,
but i hope you're doing good.
as for me? i feel great,
like i know i should.

i know the truth now.
he's got the best intentions.
we'll be something brand new
of our very own invention.