After the mall we get in his car and he sighs then turns his head to look at me. "Why did you follow me today?" He asks with annoyance in his voice. I feel put on the spot. I wanted to see if he was okay and maybe see what he does.
"To hang out? I wanted to have a- fucking- conversation," I cover my mouth. I don't swear it's my tourettes unless in really upset or serious. "Excuse me," I say and he thinks for a moment and then cranks up the car but doesn't drive yet.
"You should stop. If you talk to me I will end up hurting you. Hasn't anyone warned you? I'm not someone to be friends with," he says. Everyone says he's bad, even himself.. Why? I dont understand people like him.
I'd imagine if I didn't have tourettes I'd be in the popular group. No not snobby but happy and fun to be with? Like I dont know that sounds selfish and arrogant but I just mean I'm not like a disappointment or think I am like how people like him dress? That sounds stereotypical.. how do I word what I'm thinking?
Okay, I'm an extrovert. I like talking and hanging out with my friends. It use to be just Awsten and sometimes Matty but now its Awsten, Josh, Geoff, Otto, Vic, and almost Oliver. I'm shy with new people and things but I'm not usually a person to be quiet and mysterious. I have no secrets; I literally yell out my secrets.
I understand extroverts. Introverts I dont understand. I dont understand Oliver. I dont understand how he can sleep so much, I dont understand wearing all black every day, I dont until the sneaking around, disappearing, not wanting hugs, drugs, hurting himself, never smiling, the shady act. It baffles me.
How could he think that he's a bad person. Shouldn't he defend himself? If someone called me a bad person I would argue. If someone called me annoying I'd agree. But that's negative.. maybe that's how he is? He really thinks it?
"I dont think you're a bad person."
He looks at me like he thinks I'm dumb. "Uh huh, sure. But I'm serious, once we get home fuck off," he says and I shake my head no. I will not 'fuck off'.
"Fuck off-" oh shit. "F-fuck off!" Sometimes when I hear a word or phrase my mouth has to say it. "Fook oof" I say in a British accent on accident and he looks not pleased at it. He starts driving and I have a small tic fit but not enough to actually punch myself or anything.
His phone starts wringing so he answers is like a British bitch. 'Ello. He said 'ello. Josh's accent is so cute too. He talks on the phone for a moment but it's just agreeing and disagreeing so it's to hard to figure out what he's talking about.
Once he's done he grumbles to himself and looks mad. "British bitch!" Shut up mouth. Oliver doesn't react and we have a mostly silent ride back. He gets out and like every time doesn't wait for me I stumble after him quickly and get to his side. He needs to stop leaving me it's scary.
He gets in the elevator and I cling onto him but unlike josh he doesn't hold me at all. His hands are in his pockets. I feel like a cat or dog following its master that doesn't want to be followed.
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I open my eyes and sit up. Why was I laying? I look at josh whose the only person in our room. "What?" I say looking around..where's Oliver? When did I pass out? Josh comes over happily and kisses my forehead.
"Hey there, what are you 'what'ing about?" He says.
"Um.. how did I get here?" I say because usually I remember fainting.
"Oliver says you passed out in the elevator," he says and I nod because that seems to be the last place I remember. He carried me?
"Where is he?" I ask and he frowns.
"I dont know, getting high somewhere?" He says and I pout. Why does he have to expect the worst? I saw a different side to Oliver today. His laugh and smile.. I shouldn't like it so much. Josh is my soulmate.
Josh grabs my face and looks at my lips. Butterfly's fly in my ribcage and soon enough his lips are on mine. His lips are soft and nice. He pulls away after a few moments and sits against the headboard and then pulls me onto his lap so I'm straddling him.
His hands go to my hips and I leaned in and kiss him. Theres a feeling in my lower areas that makes me blush. Is it okay to be turned on while sitting on someone? His tongue smoothly crosses my bottom lip and I feel embarrassed because I dont know how to kiss. He then bits my bottom lip and I gasp unsure of everything.
Josh's tongue enters my mouth and I try to go along with it and kiss back the same way. His hand goes to my ass and squeezes. I move a little and then feel that he's hard. I blush more and feel myself get hard. He's gripping my hips hard and then moves me up and then down.
A door opening makes me jerk out of the kiss and look at Awsten who is looking at us with a red face. "I- um- just wanted to see if you wanted to play Mario cart with me," he say embarrassed. I get off of Josh quickly and cover my erection. Fuck white skinny jeans they help with nothing.
"Yes- yeah- definitely. I'll be one second," I say and Awsten quickly retreats back to his room. I look at Josh who looks shy.
"I'm going to sleep because I have class early and then work. I'll see you in the morning," he says and I blush more and nod. In the mornings Josh always kisses my forehead before he goes to class.
He's such a nice guy..
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