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So of course we did get out of the elevator. It only took fifteen minutes, I was scared it would take hours.
The whole day Oli was gone and josh was quiet. He asked to be alone so I hung out with Awsten, Geoff, Otto, and Vic. I slept in vic's bed with him and Otto while Geoff and Awsten slept in the other bed. It was fun and stuff but I still worry about Oli because he isnt anywhere.
It's the next day and me and Josh walked around campus looking for him. It was my idea but its strange that josh actually agreed. I'm happy that he did agree because I think Oli and him should talk to each other. They shouldn't hate each other.
I dont know if I think they should get back together but I do agree they should be friends. Oli didn't believe Josh loved him, I see how he could think that. Josh doesn't like physical contact all the time and he's always at work or classes so we dont have that much time together.
Cheating is definitely not the best thing he could have done but it happened. He regrets it and it's not my place to forgive him but I do forgive him.
"Maybe he went home?" I ask josh. I've never heard Oli talk about a home and he never goes home on weekends or anything.
Josh shakes his head no. "I doubt it, he hates his family, I've never even seen them," josh says.
"I've never seen your family and you haven't seen mine. It might not mean he doesn't like them?" I say because I dont see how someone could hate their parents. I love mine.. well.. I dont live my real dad..
"He told me he only started college to get away from them. I don't think he's there," Josh says looking around. We already checked Ronnie's place and everywhere we could think of. He also wont answer his texts or calls. Josh had his phone number but I called him on my phone and josh tried to use his own phone but he didn't answer.
What if he's at the cemetery?
I shouldn't bring josh to Oliver's secret spot.. "I think I know where he might be. Can you stay at the dorm and text me if he comes back?" I ask and text Awsten to meet me at his car.
"Uh.. sure. Where are you going?" He asks and I know I cant tell him a cemetery.. I have to lie, or at least hide the truth.
"Just somewhere I saw him him once," I say and he nods a little and bites his lip.
"Okay.. um.. me and you are okay right? I wont lose you to him or anything...right?" He asks shyly.
"You're my soulmate, I'm not leaving," I tell him and point at my lips. He smiles and leans on and kisses me. I kiss back, of course, and he holds my hips. We are in public but I dont care. People will call me a faggot but oh fucking well.
We end up parting ways and I go to Awsten's car to see him in the distance coming over. I get in the passenger side and wait for the slow poke to get here.
When he gets in he cranks up the car. "Where are we going?" He asks already knowing I'm just using him to take me somewhere.
"I'm looking for Oli and I think I know where he is. Just drive and I'll point the way," I tell him as he starts to drive. Awsten smiles to himself but I dont ask why. I love it when my bestfriend is happy.
I point directions because I dont want to tell him we are going to a cemetery. I'm going to ask if he'll stay in the car and wait for me. "I'm glad you like him, he seems too sad and your personality seems to help him," Awsten says and I smile.
"I help him?" I ask and he nods. I didn't notice but I'm glad.
Once we get then I ask for him to stay and he agrees without any arguing. I leave the yellow car and go through the gate and see Oli laying on the girls grave.
I go over to him to see he's sleeping. Just in case I check to see if he's breathing and relax when I feel that he is. He flinches away after I touch him and sits up. He's covered in dirt..
Did he sleep here?
His eyes look red but he doesn't smell like weed. "Hi," I say gently and wipe some dirt off his cheek. It looks like he rolled around and played in dirt.
"Hey kells," he say brushing dirt off his shirt.
"Are you okay?" I ask and he looks at the grave and shrugs. He's not okay.. "me and josh looked all over campus and called you a lot," I announce and he bites his bottom lip.
"You and Josh looked for me?" He asks hesitantly.
"Yeah, he's worried about you but he's pretending he's just looking because I wanted to. I know you dont want to hear it but you really hurt him and he's just trying to not get hurt again," I tell him.
"Yeah, well, I'm trying to not hurt him again either. So I have to shut him out of my life," he says something that is not true at all. That's just how to hurt josh more.
"You are both so fucking stupid. Like, I don't even understand. You could fix your relationship with him but you are so stubborn. Just accept that you hurt him so he hurt you and forgive and forget," I say in one breath because I'm frustrated. They both need to just accept the problem.
"Its not that simple-"
"How? How is it not that simple? You cheated and you two broke up. Just say sorry," I interrupt him to say. I dont understand, it is that simple. I immediately stop talking when I see tears in Oli's eyes.
He gets up and starts walking away so I follow.. I upset him.. that wasn't the plan I just want him to make up with josh. For him and josh. He sits down in the gazebo and tears fall.
"Kellin.. I got her pregnant," his broken voice tells me.
Pregnant...?
Is he a dad?
Cliff hanger hahha
So what do you think?
Is he a dad?
Time doesn't add up rn but that's actually planned.
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