Josh's pov
When kellin comes to our room he gets on his bed looking like a lost puppy. "Im sorry," I tell him.
He looks at me and at his hands. "For what?" He asks. Im not sorry for being rude to Oli. I just want my boyfriend to not ne upset at me. I shrug and he scoffs.
"Dont apologize if you aren't sorry," he says rolling his eyes. I've never had kellin mad at me so this is weird and I don't like it. I really like him, maybe love but it's to soon to really know. The room goes quiet and I watch kellin.
The black haired boy is trying to untie his shoes but keeps fidgeting around loosing progress that he makes. I would help but he says he'll never accept help for little things like changing or eating. Kellin is a really positive guy so sleeping him upset is upsetting.
If he knew how bad Oli hurt me I dont think he would blame me. Oli broke my heart and stopped on it repeatedly. We dated for a full year but cheated on me.. He snuck off with the person I've never even seen or got a name to for months until he broke up with me over text and dissapeared for a few months.
When he came back he hated me and even poured ice coffee over my head when he found out I worked at the same place he got hired at. I thought he was my soulmate.. but I know he's not
I just have a common phrase because Vic also said it but he's not my soulmate..
Kellin seems to be the best person for me but I'm messing it up. "Okay, I'm sorry that I upset you," I say because I am. He takes of his other shoe and gets on his bed more.
"Sure, i forgive you for upsetting me," he says but it doesn't sound like he forgives me. "But I dont forgive you for being rude to Oliver," he says with sass.
"That's not fair," I mumble and he shrugs.
"I guess not but life's not fair. Either make me understand why you dont like him or apologize to him," he says. I dont want to do either. "Ouch!" I look over but he's not hurt. Sometimes his tourettes catches me off guard.
"If I tell you why I dont like him you'll forgive me and cuddle?" I ask and her perks up at the word cuddle. He's so adorable. He nods eagerly and looks at me with big blue eyes.
"He cheated on me. We dated for a year and fucker cheated," I say and if kellin had dog ears they would have gone down as his shoulders slumped. He bites his bottom lip and looks at the door.
"Okay we can cuddle," he says softly and comes over and gets in my bed with me. He hugs me and puts his face on my chest. "You know.. he could have changed..." he whispers and my heart hurts. Oliver smashed my heart in pieces and he still gives me dirty looks. He didn't change- he did once, from good to bad.
I dont reply to kellin because I cant without saying something mean. If kellin gets mixed up with Oli he'll end up ruining his life too. Oli us a fucking druggie and a disappointment to everyone. He even hurt vic..
I hate what he did to vic.. kellin's hand suddenly smacks my crotch and I groan in pain and cover it. "Fucking god," I say.
"Sorry.." he says.
"Its fine," I say still in pain. Kellin probably feels bad about that so I wont bring it up but fuck that hurt. I blow out air trying to breath again.
After a few moments I look at kellin to see him pouting to himself. "Sweetie?" I say and he looks at me. "Kiss?" I say causing a smile to spread on his face. He comes closer and our lips meet. The kiss is soft and slow but very meaningful. Kellin makes me feel loved..
I wonder how my parents are going to react to kellin being a boy. I ended up telling them I found my soulmate and explained him a little but not the tourettes or the Male part. They don't even know Oli existed because back then I was scared they wouldn't like me dating a boy that had lots of tattoos. Now I don't care, they cant control me.
They might be cool with it, I have no clue yet. I miss my dog, I might go home this or next weekend to spend time with my family and dog.
Kellin's pov
I don't like cheaters but that was years ago. Oliver did change according to Vic and Josh so maybe he's not the type to cheat anymore. Maybe he regrets it and that's why he's so miserable.
Maybe he disappeared for that time to fix himself? I have no idea but I dont think my feelings for Oliver changed at all. Feelings.. why do I like him? Shouldn't Josh be enough?
I feel guilty but we are in a open relationship so I shouldn't feel guilty. I could date him and it not be wrong. My face gets hot as I think about if Oliver was nice like the few snippets I've seen of him all the time. He's sarcastic and is funny at times. Just is almost purely sweet except the times he's bitter towards Oliver.
I wish I knew 100% who I'm supposed to date..
Thoughts?
Josh?
Oli?
Kellin?
Do you think Oli cheated?
Lol poor josh getting hit my kellin
