As soon as Josh get back I jump on him into a hug and koala myself to him. I missed him for the two days and one night he was gone for. He grabs the backs of my thighs do I dont fall and I press my lips to his.
He kisses back. "Ewwww, go to your room," Awsten says from his bed. I love how strong josh is, he wont drop me.
"I've seen you kiss Geoff and didn't say anything," I pull away to say and as I have my head turned to look at Awsten josh kisses my cheek.
"Um you said 'fuck me instead' if I remember correctly," he says and my face gets hot and josh starts kissing my neck causing me to start being turned on. Shyly I face him and he kisses my mouth and starts walking. I kiss back and he takes me to our room and he sits on his bed causing me to be in his lap.
"I missed you," he says playing with my hair as we are only a inch apart.
"I missed you more. I even cried because I was lonely," I mumble and he kisses my cheek and puts his hands a few inches up my shirt to hold my sides.
"I'm leaving because I'm scared you'll fuck!" Awsten yells from the other room.
"Thanks," josh yells back and I blush. What does he want to do? He kisses me again and I scoot up so I can sit directly on his crotch instead of his thighs.
Josh's hand goes to my stomach and then up. I shive as we kiss he deepens the kiss and kisses me rougher than normal. His thumb goes over my nipple and I blush harder than I've ever blushed before. I can feel that he's hard and so am I..
"Choke me," I tic and he blushes.
"I dont- uh.. I dont do that-" he says awkwardly.
"Oh my god I'm sorry that was a tic I dont want to be choked," I say embarrassed and awkward.
"Oh, good. Uh-" he says and I move a little and he blushes and looks at the bulge in my pants.
Everything just got so awkward. I get off of him and start yipping. Oh god, why cant I just be normal? I hear the door in the other room open and close so I guess Oli is back from where ever he went.
"I'm- yip- I'm going to uh," I say and he nods.
"Yeah I'm going to go take a shower and then we can go on a date? Maybe to the beach?" He says getting up.
"Okay- yip-" I say and he leaves I sit on the bed and blush to myself. He is really hot and I'd like to do things with him but not in a dorm room that we share with two other people. After a while, when my lower regions are calm, I get up still tipping every 30 seconds.
I go out of my room and see Oli is drowning in a bowl. Confused and worried I pull his head out of the oatmeal and he looks concern to. "Huh?" He says wiping oatmeal off of his entire face.
WAS HE JUST GOING TO DROWN IN OATMEAL??
"Huh? What do you mean huh!?" I say quickly and high pitched. He looks at the oatmeal and then me. He seems like he just woke up or something.
"Oh, yeah. I'm eating," he says and grabs his fork. Why is he using a fork??
"Oli? What are you doing?" I ask and he eats.
He looks at me slow and drops his fork on accident. "My spoon.." he says looking at it like it's out of his reach but it's not. "Babe, get me it," he says pointing at it halfway there. Babe? I give it to him but he doesn't even grab it all the way.
He ends up taking it but something is wrong with him. "Why are you- what's wrong?" I say and he smiles.
"Xanax helps," he says and I sit next to him.
"Maybe you shouldn't take xanax?" I ask and he shakes his head.
"It prescribed to me, it makes me less likely to kill myself,'' he says and I feel sad that he feels like this. "But I did take more than normal," he says and I frown. I don't want him to accidentally overdose..
"How much more?" I ask quietly.
"Just one more," he says but that's still bad. I nod and try to think of something to do to help him and he eats oatmeal with his hand.
"Why do you feel so sad? Maybe if you tell me I can help?" I ask him and he shakes his head.
"Nice try but even high off xanax I'm not telling," he says getting up and starts washing his face and hands getting water everywhere. I watch him.and then follow him into his room and he lays down and goes to sleep. I sit on his bed and rub his back. He rolls over so he's on his stomach and let's me rub his back.
"Put your hand up my shirt," he mumbles and I do as he says and feel his smooth back. I wish Josh and him weren't mad at each other so we all can be happy.
I pull up his shirt and trace his tattoos. I really love touching him, is that weird? "Tell josh that I'm sorry..- no, dont do that," he says with a sigh. He should apologize to josh. It seems like in the beginning he did more damage to their relationship. But Josh has said some really bad stuff to him so he needs to apologize too.
Eventually Oli falls asleep and I wait on Oli's bed for Josh. I want to talk to him more about Oli. See if he can forgive him without me telling him too.
Thoughts
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Oli?
