It's getting close to night but Oli is still in bed. He hasn't moved that much. He went to the bathroom but he was pretty much a zombie stumbling around. "Oli.," I say and he turns in bed and looks at me lazily. "I don't think you should have taken that much Xanax, " I say and he closes his eyes.
"I don't care, " he slurs.
I stomp my foot a few times, I'm no longer high so my tics have been annoying me a lot. I took my medicine but that doesn't prevent me from ticing it just lessens it.
When Josh comes back Oli is asleep. Josh looks relieved that he doesn't have to face him. Josh hardly greets me; he just gives me a fake smile and goes to our room. I tuck Oli in and then go after Josh.
Josh is getting on his bed when I enter the room. I go about his bed and get in with him. "What-" I start asking him about what he's thinking but he covers my mouth.
"I'm tired, can we sleep?" He says and I pout. Nobody has been talking to me except Vic and Awsten but that's over text. I'm lonely even though I'm four inches away from my boyfriend. I'm very needy, I know.
"Okay, good night... I love you," I say and try to leave his bed but he wraps his arms around my torso and brings me to him.
"I love you too, and you're sleeping in my bed with me tonight, " he says and I smile. Good, I didn't want to sleep in my bed all alone.
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After class, the next day is when Josh and Oli finally talk again. "So.. You have a family of your own?" Josh starts and Oli stops texting and looks at Josh who just walked in. Josh doesn't understand how bad that must be for Oli to hear...
Oli shrugs. "They aren't in my life anymore... So no, I don't," Oli says calmly. Josh looks upset and ready to accuse Oli of something. The stressful situation is making me twitch but I'm trying to suppress the tics.
"But if we started dating and she came back you would leave me, again, " he says and Oli shrugs again. Josh scoff and starts to leave.
"She killed herself!" I yell and both of their heads snap to me. Oh my god. "Fuck- i'm a Dinosaur!" I get up covering my mouth. I hate touretts so much. "Ey- Ey- oh- oh," noise come from me as I rush out.
Oli's going to hate me.
I run to Vic's and bang on the door. Awsten let's me in and stops me from pulling my own hair. "F-fuck- me!" I shout. Vic and Geoff are in here too.
I open my eyes confused to see im in bed. Oh, I passed out. I don't like passing out over ten times a day. This is the 7th or so one today and it's not even past noon. "How do you feel?" Both Vic and Awsten ask at the same time.
"Tired- oh my god. How long has it been?" I ask getting up.
"Almost half an hour," Awsten says looking at his phone for the time.
"I have to go check on Oli and Josh!" I say scrambling up. "Ill see you guys later," I call out and rush out the room. I get to my dorm room and go in to see Josh huging Oli who is crying.
I dont like seeing Oli cry but its better than coming back to them both yelling. Josh looks at me and he looks sad.. Oli must have told him everything. "Kells, can you order pizza? He hasn't been eating enough," josh says and Oli cries harder into the other's chest.
"Yeah, yip- yip-" i start yipping so I grab my phone from my room and go back to Vic's. I'm going to make one of them talk on the phone because it's hard for me.
Short chapter but oh well
