Kellin's POV
"Highlighter freak!" I shout and Geoff chuckles to himself. Awsten smiles at Geoff but since Geoff is reading he doesn't see awsten's smile. I find their relationship really cute.
They both admire each other so much. Awsten then looks at me and blushes when he sees I saw him look at Geoff 'lovingly'. "So how are you and Josh?" Awsten asks me.
"Yesterday we went for ice cream. And today me, him, and Oli are going to hang out," I say happily. He smiles and my phone dings making me jump to get it. My boyfriend has been texting me more than normal because he's nervous about our plans God later today.
He, of course, won't say that he's nervous. Not to me at least. I think he doesn't want to seem like this date is a big deal. But it kind of is, this will determine if Oli and Josh fix their relationship.
I pull my phone out of my pocket and make a squealing noise, yeah I'm excited but not enough to be making those noises. My touretts is so annoying. It disturbs everyone's lives. I guess the small sounds I make aren't terrible but they are annoying and I'm always insulting everyone.
The other day I told Geoff to jump off a bridge. He didn't seem bothered by it but I still feel bad about it. I try not to think about stuff like that around Oli because I'll feel really bad if I told Oli to kill himself. He's told me he was suicidal so I'm sure that stuff gets to him easier than others.
Josh: I'll be back in a few minutes so make sure Oli is still wanting to do this.
Me: okay 🥰
I get up and put my phone in my pocket. "I'm going- to kill myself- to go get ready," I say, and Awsten nods.
"Okay be safe," he says and I go to the door. My room is really close so I don't need him to walk me back. I hum and leave the room.
I walk down the hall and unlock my dorm room. When I open the door I see Oliver sitting on the edge of his bed with his face in his hands. As soon as he hears me he stands up quickly and clears his throat. "Hey," he says and looks in the mirror quickly and then at me.
He looks like he was caught doing something but I don't see anything wrong? He's shirtless but he doesn't look like he was going anything naughty..?
My cheeks flush as my eyes scan his bare chest. He's so hot.. "Hi," I say and look at his tattoos. I really love all his colorful tattoos. By the stars are his scars, he never explained why he cut were his words were. Or did he? I forgot if he did.. I'm such a bad person. I can't remember things I should. Maybe it will come back to me in a little while if I do in fact know.
He starts putting an oversized long-sleeved shirt on and I yip a few times. Why can't I be normal? "We are going to go to the park, that's what I want to do. But josh wants to go to the mall. What would you rather do?" I ask him. Josh and I are not arguing or anything but we can't settle on a place we both like and josh proposed Oli pick.
He messes with his curly hair and thinks before he speaks. "Why don't you want to go to the mall?" He asks.
"There too many people and my social anxiety mixed with touretts is just a no-no," I say. I hate that that's true, I'd love to be where Josh wants to be.
"Why doesn't josh want to go to the park?" He asks.
"He said it's hot outside," I state.
He wipes his eyes and then touches his throat a little. "Maybe we could go to the woods? There's a hiking trail but it has trees and shade," he says.
