So I won't be dropping out because I pretty much have 4 people doing my school work and helping me. Awsten, Vic, Josh, and sometimes Oli help me. It's been a week since josh and Oli stopped being mean to each other but not too much has changed.
People still stare at me in class and laugh. Some people pitty me way too much. I did have a conversation with Justin because yet another I pushed my papers on again. I yip uncontrollably in Josh's lap. Josh is reading me the book that I have to study. When I try to read it I end up hurting the book or myself.
Oli isn't here and Vic is in the kitchen part cooking. He doesn't want to be in his room when Awsten and Geoff are in there. Awsten is getting a little more distant from me but I think it's natural, he really loves Geoff and I'm happy with Josh- I'm happy with what I have.
Josh doesn't always want to spend time with me but I'm never alone. Oli likes- okay he doesn't say it- but I think he likes me hanging out with him. The other day he let me go with him to the cemetery. We smoked and ate out, it was really fun.
No, he's not my boyfriend but he's close enough to it. We might have made out a few times... I did talk to Josh a little more about Oli and he says he really doesn't mind me fooling around with him.
Me and josh might have- um... Well, my knees might be a little bruised from... Some activities.. "Fuck me!" I shout and Josh blushes. We haven't done that yet... I blush shot and he puts down the book and grabs my hips.
"Are you even listening to this book I'm reading?" He asks looking into my eyes.
I shake my head and nod at the same time. He chuckles and kisses my chin making me smile. "Faggot!" I yell and he nods.
"Yup, that's true, " Josh says and I almost jump off of him when the door opens.
We both look at Oli to see he's distressed. His hair is chaotic and his eyebrow is bleeding. I get up quickly and we both go to him. "What happened?" I ask and he shrugs.
"Nothing, but I need your phone, " he says and puts his hand in Josh's back pocket making his step back from how close Oli is to him. He pulls out his phone and runs out leaving us in bewilderment.
"What's he doing?" I ask Josh snd he shrugs.
"I don't know, he has my phone, " he says stating the obvious. Vic walks in looking confused.
"What's with him?" He asks pointing in the direction Oli went. Me and Josh shrug and Vic hums.
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When Oli gets back it's one in the morning. Josh has morning class so he is asleep but I stayed away and waited on his bed. Sulking the whole time. When the door opens I frown at him and he looks surprised to see me. He looks at Awsten's empty bed for a moment and then back to me.
"Hey, " he says taking off his shoes and then his jacket.
"Where were you? What did you do? Why are you hurt?" I ask pointing at his eyebrow. He shrugs and takes off his jeans and getting in his bed. I stay sitting on his bed, I need answers. Not just a shrug.
"Oli, what happened?" I ask.
"Nothing, I just had to talk to someone who blocked me," he says it like its no big deal. I lean over and go for his eyebrow but he leans back so I can't reach. Stubbornly I get on his lap and push his hair out of the way.
The cut isn't that bad and not bleeding anymore, but he shouldn't have got hit(?) In the first place. "What happened?" I ask yet again and he huffs. He slides down more and lays as I'm straddling his hips.
"Nothing important, I'm exhausted. Let me sleep," he says and I pout. "You.. You can sleep with me if you prefer," he says and I nod. Sleeping in my bed alone is lonely. I scoot down his body and lay on top of him. Oli holds me close and doesn't let go.
