Spam the ham
Kellin's pov
It's been a month since I got to college and I'm pretty sure I'm going to drop out. I haven't told anyone except Awsten yet. I think my mom will be happy to have me back but my dad wants me to get a college degree.
My dad thinks I'm tougher than I am and my mom thinks I'm weaker than I am. Oliver wakes up and looks at me who is sitting in Awstens bed. Awsten just left to go hang out with Geoff and Josh left this morning. "Why is it raining?" He grumbles. I look out the window to see it pouring out, I knew it was raining but it looks very dark outside.
He gets up and starts putting on his jacket. "You're going out? I dont want to be left alone," I say getting up and putting my shoes on.
"Stay with josh," he mumbles.
"Josh isn't here," I say grabbing Awstens jacket and putting it on.
"You cant go with me this time," he says as he puts on his shoes. I really dont want to be left, I'm scared I'll pass out and never wake up. It's a possibility, I dont faint for no reason. It's not getting enough oxygen so what if I stop breathing as I'm passed out? Theres so many things that could go wrong.
"I have to, Awsten is out at the movies and I texted Vic a little while ago and he's at his parents house," I say going to him as he opens the door.
He looks aggravated.
"No. You are not coming," he say and I feel my face go flush. I'm not going to be left. I'm scared of being alone.
"Y-yes I am," I say and feel my eyes getting watery. Oliver looks at me and rolls his eyes.
"You're going to cry if I dont take you?" He asks.
I wipe my eyes and shake my head quickly. "No. I'm not. I just dont want to be alone," I say and he sighs and runs his hand through his almost oily hair. He washed it two days and oh my god it was so fluffy.
He looks at me and rolls his eyes. "I'm going to be in the rain, you dont want to come," he says trying to talk me out of it. He starts walking out so I follow. "Its going to be cold. Go back," he adds as I follow his almost to fast walking.
"Please?" I ask. Not because I'm going to stop following if he doesn't agree but because I want him to accept that I'm coming with him. He doesn't say any thing and gets in the elevator so I get in and try to hug him but he puts his hand on my chest not letting me get close and presses the highest floor.
"O-Oliver please-" I say getting scared. The doors shut and he keeps blocking me. My body is shaking and I when the door opens he clicks a different button. "What are you doing!?" I say because it was unnecessary to do.
"I'm riding it until you want to go back to the dorm," he says calmly.
Right then and there I burst into tears. I cant help it, I'm on a elevator with someone who hates me and I'm going to have to be alone all day and night. He stops holding me back and I hold onto him terrified that the thing might break and kill us.
He lets me hug him and I see him click first floor. I cry into his shirt and finally he helps me out of the elevator. "Look, you're out. Stop crying," he mumbles uncomfortably.
I don't move for a moment trying to collect myself. I'm safe, and oliver might not hate me. I wipe my face and sniffle. "A-are you g-onna leave me?" I ask trying to stop crying. He shrugs a little and looks around.
"I guess not, but if you keep crying I will," he says and I wipe my eyes quickly.
"Okay I'm not c-crying," I say sniffling. He nods a little and starts leaving me so I quickly follow and pretend I'm not still halfway crying. He goes outside and the rain attacks us. "I'm melting!" I shout and click my tongue.
He gets in his car so I do to and he sighs and looks at me. His wet hair is already dripping. I put the hair thats on my face into a small bun and wipe my eyes more. He looks like he's going to say something but stops and cranks up the car. Rain beats down on it and he starts driving.
Its quiet and dreary as we drive on the wet roads. It's late afternoon but the skys are so stormy it looks night time. He parks at a.. flower shop? "Stay here," he says and gets out. I watch him go into the store but I cant see inside of it. A few minutes later oliver comes out empty handed.. well I guess I didn't expect him to buy flowers..
He gets back in looking extra sad.. He rests his head on the steering wheel. "What did you do in there?" I ask and he shakes his head no.
"Nothing.." he says and backs out and starts driving.. He drives slowly and looks really upset.. He then parks on the side of the road and turns off the car. What is he doing?
"I'll be back, can you please stay here?" He asks and I look at the only thing he could be getting out to go to. It's a gate with over grown stuff on it.
"But.. I want to come," I say and he looks at me and shrugs.
"I guess you fucking can," he says aggravated.. he gets out and I follow. He pushes the gate open and I see we are at a cemetery.. he walks in and the rain pelts down on us. He goes to a gazebo and once we are in it we are protected from the rain.
He pulls out a blunt and lighter and rolls his eyes at me. "I told you, you didn't want to come. I come here to get high and be alone," he says.
"But it's a cemetery.. isn't that a bit.. sad?" I ask.
"When I had friends we use to come here so it's just fimmiler.. I like it here," he says and starts smoking. It's cold and wet. I look at the over grown graves.. it's really pretty.
I'd rather be here with him than alone in the room so I wont complain about the cold rain.
Thoughts?
Oli?
Kellin?
The elevator?
The flower store?
The cemetery?
