Vic gives me water when I wake up so I take it with a thank you. Instead of bringing it to my lips and drinking it I pour it over my head in jerky movements. "I'm a plant!" I say and Vic looks like he wants to laugh but he stays serious.
I hate it when people do that. Just laugh. It seems depressing and pathetic if I tic and people stare with a sad and serious look. I smile with wet dripping hair. "Apparently I'm a plant," I say and he smiles.
"I see, here let me get you a dry shirt," he says and starts going through his closet. Vic is attractive.. I hate that I have checked him out. I'm dating Josh. I know I wont cheat it's just silly that I like the idea of him shirtless. He gets a tie dye hoodie and I take off my wet shirt and he looks at my 'before you I serve nothing' tattoo.
I only have three tattoos but I love them. He gives me the hoodie and I put it on after shaking the water off my hair. "Thanks," I say and then realize what was happening before I passed out. " wait! I need to help Oliver," I say about to run out the door but he grabs me.
"Nope, Awsten, Geoff, and Josh are helping him. There shouldn't be to many people," he says and I pout. I need to see if he's okay.
"Sit, I'm texting Geoff and he's been telling me they got him to sit on his bed but he's still hysterical," he tells me and motions me to sit back down. I sit down and kick my feet a little on accident.
"He's so.. did you see him? He needs to calm down," I say panicking.
"Yeah but you need to calm down now," he says and sits next to me. I sigh and shrugs uncontrollably.
I put my hands on my shoulders trying to stop it. "Porcupine!" I shout. This more or less snaps me out of it and I laugh. This makes Vic chuckle and I smile. "That remains me, do you know what happened to Oliver's hand? It looks like a he grabbed a Porcupine- PORCUPINE!" I hiccup.
Vic shrugs and I see he doesn't know. "No, I haven't really talked to Oli recently," he says and I lay down.
"What was he like two years ago?" I ask and he looks sad. He sighs and messes with his hair. His brown eyes seem darker than before and he them plays with his long sleeves.
He looks at me and I cant help but notice his light freckles on his cheeks and bridge of his nose. "Well.. like 4 years ago he was really.. happy. And. He was a little troubled but not like he is now. 2 years ago he was distance but there.. then.. he.. well, hes like he is now. Bitter," he mumbles and rubs his face.
"Why?" I ask and he shrugs.
"I tried to figure it out but it made things worse. All I know is he got caught up in something bad. He, changed.. hes not Oli anymore," he says. Josh said he's not himself anymore and so did Vic..
I want to meet the 'Oli' they mentioned.
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Last night I slept at Vic's with Awsten next to me while the others helped Oliver through the night. Apparently all night he was freaking out and didn't sleep at all. Just a few hours ago he started to realize he was just having a bad trip and ended up telling them he took acid and has been drinking water and trying to get them to leave.
"Do you think I can go talk to him?" I ask Awsten for the thousandth time.
"No.. he's still tripping so if you tic it could send him into panic mode again," Awsten says and I pout. I hate that Oliver is in a bad state of mind right now. I want to help..
"Oh I have class," I say getting up and looking for my shoes.
"I'm skipping first so I can sleep more," Awsten mumbles going back to sleep. He stayed with oliver until 5am so I agree he should sleep.
"That's fine, I'm going to go now because I'm going to talk to the teacher about some stuff I missed when I passes out," I tell him and wave Vic bye before leaving. Maybe after my classes I can talk to oliver.
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Of course Oliver's not in class so I take notes extra neat so if he wants he can have them. Today has been.. eh. I embarrassed myself quite a lot and some people were whispering about how weird I am. Nobody told me to kill myself or to go mute so it wasn't a bad day. I'm just worried about Oliver.
Eventually I get out off class and hurry back to my room. When I enter my dorm Oliver is laying on his bed with a pillow over his face. I sit on the edge of his bed and he scoots away from me but doesn't move the pillow. "Go aw-ay," his voice is tired and rough. It sounds like he hurt his voice screaming so much.
"I want to talk to you," I say softly. He sighs.
"Well I dont w-ant to talk to you," he says voice breaking. I nod even though he can see me.
"Are you feeling any better?" I ask him and he lowers the pillow and looks at me. It looks like he's been crying.
"Why would you care?"
"Because you're my friend," I tell him and he scoffs and sits up.
"You're not my friend. I dont have friends," he says. Nobody should secluded themselves as much as he has. People need friends and family. Does he have family?
"Why not? You've helped me and we see each other daily. What makes me not your friend?" I ask and he frowns and starts thinking of a reason. "Dont try to find a reason, just accept it. We are friends. Now tell me how you feel," I say and he shrugs.
"Better. Now leave me alone," he says.
I got him to acknowledge we are friends so that's a step. "Do you want me to try to cook for you?" I ask. Try, because it's going to be gross because I usually pour way to much of some ingredients and throw other things. He shakes his head no.
"Order vegan pizza, use my card," he says pulling out his wallet and giving me his card. I dial the number with difficulties and then as soon as they answer I yell 'fuck off' leading to them hanging up.
Oliver is looking at me amused. "Oops, can you do it instead?" I ask and throw my phone breaking a cup in the process. He smiles for a split second as I do that.
"Yeah," he says getting out his phone. I need to talk to josh about what in allowed to do. Like, can I cuddle with guys or does he consider that cheating? He doesn't care about Awsten and me but I feel like he sees Awsten and Oliver way differently.
Oliver orders pizza and fixes his hair. "Does Josh still hate me?" He whispers out the question. Oh.. I don't know.. josh did say he wished he never met him..
"I don't think so, he was really upset and worried last night," I tell him and he nods a little. He sighs and I see the 'Porcupine' cuts/holes in his palm and hand looks better.
"What happened to your hand?" I ask wanting to know.
"A porcupine, duh," he says with a scoff and then hides a smile when I start giggling.
"A Porcupine did not," I say and cover my mouth as I laugh. He nods but he's lying.
"It did, I wanted its rose so it stabbed me," he says and a snort as I laugh and then I'm laughing at my laughter. Oliver watches me looking slightly happy.
I'm glad I made him a little happier. He seems too depressed all the time. It's a goal of mine to cheer him up more and find his soulmate. He deserves happiness and love.
Thoughts?
Porcupine?
Oli?
Kellin?
Is josh going to be jealous?
