As I lay with josh he tells me about some lady who wanted him to make her a burger at his work. Karens. "Psst," I make the noise and put my face in his shoulder as I continue to make the psst sound.
My hand clinches making me grip a handful of his shirt. For a moment I stay still like this (mostly still anyways). I pull away and sigh. "I wrinkled your shirt," I say and he look at it.
"Its fine, it will either unwrinkle by itself or later when I wash my clothes," he says and I relax a little against him. I have less tics when being held or cuddling with someone I feel comfortable with. Awsten is the best person for this but josh is comfortable.
"What if we didnt know our soulmates.. that would be so hard. Like, you might never find them," I say and he nods.
"Yeah.. but sometimes people get mixed up.. fall in love with someone who isnt their soulmate. Or think someone is there soulmate but it was just a coincidence," he says quietly.
From what I gathered Josh is a sweetheart and not someone who would go sleep around. He said something about liking blowjobs so I don't really think he's a virgin.. Did he date someone and think they were his soulmate?
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Today is the first day of school and I'm so not ready. The week here was decent, I got to truly meet Geoff and Otto. They seem like really cool guys. Nothing important has happened. The days seem short because I hang out with Awsten for most of the day and then josh and sometimes Oliver comes back from work and Josh entertains me with conversations and cuddles. While Awsten hangs out with his boyfriend.
Oliver's actions are less known. He usually isn't even here but when he is he's sleeping or arguing with josh about the strangest of things. Like plugging his phone in to charge or making (or buying) him food. He's just very rude. He's easy to hate but honestly I don't hate him. I dont even dislike him.
I think he just needs his souls and then he'll slowly get nicer. Right now he's very bitter. "He needs to be pollinated," josh looks at me weird and I shrug. "I dont even know," I say and he smiles and continues to braid my hair.
His soulmate needs to pollinate him so he can bloom. I want to ask Josh if he knows why Oliver hasn't bloomed but he doesn't seem like he would understand my weird way of thinking. Okay, not to be mean but I dont think josh is really abstract in his mind like I am. Like.. how do I explain it. He's not sarcastic and he doesn't seem to understand when I'm joking.
But we still have good conversations it's just an observation, I'm not complaining or calling him dumb. He's very book smart and sweet. "I have two classes that I dont know anyone in, what if I pass out?" I say upset. On Monday's I have 4 classes and josh is in one and then Awsten is in the other. My last classes are going to be horrible if I'm paranoid someone will hurt me or I'll hurt myself and everyone will laugh.
"You told the professors so they will know what to do," he says but I doubt that's true. I sigh and undue the braid.
"Yeah, sure. I'll see you in class," I say and he nods a little and I go out of the room to Awstens. Oliver is looking rather creepy as he sits on his bed.
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I'm not sure what's actually creepy. Maybe it's the fact he's awake and looking at me now? He watches us so weird.
"Are you ready?" I ask Awsten. He starts talking about which direction we are going to go in and random stuff letting me know he over thought this. We then leave and go to our first class together.
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The first two classes went.. uh... well let's just say both classes know I have tourettes. When I get into the class I see it's like a high school classroom. One of my other classes was an auditorium and was really fancy but there were so many more people.
I sit in the back corner and to my surprise Oliver comes in and sits next to me seeming pissed. He always seems mad so I guess I'm not surprised. "I already sat so it doesn't matter now but you're in my spot," he grumbles to me. That explains why he say next to me.
"Oh, sorry. Tomorrow I wont sit here," i say and he ignores me as he goes to sleep.
Halfway through the class I start making a yip sound almost like I have hiccups. I try to ignore it but everyone keeps looking at me. I break my pencil when I stab my desk with force like I'm trying to kill it. "Demon!" I yell and end up stabbing my thigh with the broken pencil.
Uncontrollably I do it again but the wood it taken away from me by Oliver. The class is now staring at me and I yip and try to hurt myself more but Oliver grabs my wrists and glares at everyone.
"Mind your fucking business," he growls and everyone stops looking at us. To stop myself from being so loud I put my face against his chest and yip into it so it muffles. After a minute or so I stop and let go of him. "Are you done or do you want me to take out outside?" He asks.
"I'm done.. thank you," I say and he sits back in his seat. Class goes slowly and a lot of people keep staring at me and whispering about me. That's not any different than my other classes so far.
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Apparently oliver is in my last class too. I sat next to him in auditorium seats and he actually takes notes in this class. It's a poetry class so it surprises me a little. Well, a lot.
We walk back quietly together and he goes to sleep on his bed and I go to Awsten because josh has classes until night. Hopefully tomorrow is better because it seems like college might be to hard for me..
