Just saying I don't always write his tics and stuff if they are really noticable. Like he might blink weird or jerk around a little but it never be mentioned because he doesn't even acknowledge them.
It's only when I wake up when I realize I fell asleep. I pull away from Josh only to discover its Vic. I blink tiredly and Vic looks away from the ceiling to look at me.
His brown eyes have amber and gold flakes making them look different than other brown eyes. I think my favourite eye color is green but I really do love Josh's blue eyes and Vic and Oliver's brown eyes. Its cold in dorms and I hate it but at least body heat is a thing.
Carefully I put my face back in the tie dye hoodie and put my cold hand up it but just on his stomach. He flinches a little at my touch. "You're hands are so cold, are you even alive?" He say and he touches my arm. "All of you is cold," he says pulling blankets over us and cuddling up to me.
Yes, warm me up.
Under the blankets he grabs my thigh to scoot me closer and then he rubs it. Are you trying to turn me on? "You're thighs are really warm," he says.
"The insides of my thighs are hotter," I mumble and his hand goes in between my closed legs and my face goes red.
"That's very true," he says and leaves his hand there. My hand is warming up from his hot skin so I put my other hand up his hoodie and onto his stomach. If he was naked I could steal all his body heat- shut up mind. It's not like that.
Theres a knock on the door so Vic gets up leaving me on his bed so I steal all the blankets and watch him. He opens the door and Oliver's tired form is there. Oli sees me and looks annoyed. "Here," Oli say to Vic giving him something and then walking away.
"How about you stay and hang out?" Vic calls after him going out of the room a bit but holding the door so he doesn't get locked out. Oli mumbles something and a few moments later Vic comes in alone with a notebook.
He looks a little sad.
"Let me read this, it will only be a few minutes," he says sitting down at a desk. I watch as he reads it. What did Oli write him? Dont they not get along?
Oli is still really confusing and mysterious. Like, why did he disappear? Why would he blame himself for hurting people? Why would he cut the spot he got his words?
Theres a lot that I dont understand about him or even josh- well okay I don't understand anyone except Awsten. I know Awsten better than I know myself and he knows me probably more than he know himself.
"You've been talking to Oli?" Vic asks. He probably assumes that because of me called him Oli or the notebook says it.
"Yeah, why?" I ask and he looks at me and then the notebook.
"He mentioned making a friend and you called him Oli and live with him so it would make sense. Plus he said 'cute'," he says with a smile.
"W-what does it say about me?" I ask and he turns a page. Oli wrote a lot..
"The note is an apology letter so it does really say anything about you or what he's up to now. It's just explaining a few things I already knew but I'm glad he apologized," he says and I nod. I dont know what he apologized for but it seems like either he went into detail or apologized for a lot of things.
"I have to go do something," he says getting up and going to his shoes. I guess I should leave. I get up and follow him out.
"I'm going back to my room, I'll see you later," I tell him and he smiles and nods. Vic seems happy about the note but I find that weird because I would assume the stuff Oli would write would be sad.
He looks like hes about to hug me so I step in too and we hug. "See you later," he says and leaves. I go to my own room and see Oli sitting weirdly on his bed holding a pen my only the clicker button with his fingertips. It falls when I shut the door and he looks at me.
He pats next to him on the bed so I get on it and he leans against the wall
Is he not going to talk? I scoot back and them lay on his lap. He puts his hand on my back and rubs it for only a moment before putting his hand up the back of my shirt and rubbing my skin.
His hand is warm and gentle even though his skin isnt the softest. Josh's hands are really soft. Everything goes blurry and I feel my would fading.
"I'm going to pass out," I say and he nods. He continues to rub my back as I slowly fade out.
Oli's pov
The boy passes out but that doesn't matter, I just want him near me. I do.t feel like talking or expressing my feelings and all that bullshit.
I swirl his soft hair around my fingers and comb his hair out of his pretty face. His skin is pale and lips soft and pink. Kellin's eyes are closed but I know he has really pretty grayish blue eyes.
My phone buzzes so I look at it.
Viccy: I already told you that I forgive you. You blame yourself to much. Maybe we could meet up and just talk?
Me: I hurt you, I apologized but I dont think I'm good for you
Viccy: you didn't, I'm okay now
I turn off my phone and sigh. I hurt him and he wont even admitte it. I pull kellin's limp body up and hug him. I shouldn't let him get close to me...
Thoughts?
Theories?
Vic?
Oli?
