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"Okay you can look," I say after in sitting in the bath that's filled with purple water and pinkish white bubbles.
I'm a little less shy about being in the bath with Oli than I am with Awsten because Oli has literally touched my dick so it's not like he's never seen it. He sits on a low stool I keep in here and rolls up his sleeves. He already changed and I gave him baby wipes so he wont be sticky.
Oli puts his forehead on the rim of the bathtub and sighs. I feel like he's really stressed and sad. As he has his head down I play with his curly hair, getting it a little more wet.
"Are you sad?" I ask and he lifts his head still leaning over. His arms keep his body up as he now has them folded on the edge of the bath. He gives me a look like he doesn't understand what I asked.
"Why?" He asks and I realize he might not be sad and now I pretty much said he looks sad. I look at him with a shocked expression. He stops looking confused and shrugs. "I feel like how I normally do, maybe a little better because I'm with you?" He says and I blush.
"But I didn't bring my medicine so..." he says trailing off. He said he doesn't feel suicidal when in his medicine so does that mean he is right now?
"Do you want to talk about it?" I ask and he looks offended for a moment and then pouts. He shrugs his shoulders and then nods. I sit more up and put my hand over his. I want him to trust and talk to me and I think he does too.
"Well.." he says and sighs.
"Um.. I just.. I like you but I feel bad because I still like your boyfriend who hates me. Like, I just um want him to talk to me," he says and I think for a second before opening my mouth.
"Give me my phone. We are going to talk to him," I say and he frowns.
"I don't want to," he mumbles.
"You love josh right?" I say knowing he does. Its obvious.. he loves my boyfriend. This might hurt me in the long run but I want josh and Oli to make up. Make out? I dont know. But definitely make up.
He gets my pants and pulls out my phone and sits back down. I'll rather not throw it or shove it under the water so I don't take it. "Call josh and put it on speaker phone but dont talk yet," I tell him and he does so.
"Hey kells," josh answers and josh just watches the black screen.
"Hi josh, I have a question but I really want a true answer. It might be embarrassing but please answer truthfully," I say hoping what josh says doesn't hurt oli. But I've seen how josh looks at Oli, I'm not blind.
"Uh... what's the question?" He says unsure and oli looks at me for my answer/question.
"I have a few, the first one is what would you think if I kissed oli?" I ask and oli's face goes slightly red. If he reacts bad to this he wont react good to the other question and that would hurt oli.
"I.. dont have a problem with it. As long as you know that you are mine," he says and I smile. That's really good.
"Do you still have feelings for Oli?" I ask and Oli looks at the phone with fear in his eyes. Josh goes quiet and I watch oli look at the phone intensity.
"Why?" He asks avoiding the question. He didn't say no.
"Because I like him and maybe... if we all agree we could... do something together? Like. You two can forgive each other and we could all hang out?" I ask nervously.
"Me hang out with Oli? He hates me, why would he agree?" He says defensively.
"I don't think he hates you-"
"He does. And I dont think I want to get hurt again. It sounds nice to hang out with both of you but it would end bad- hell- it will start bad too," josh says and oli looks sadder.
"What if he's sorry? What if he doesn't hate you?" I ask and I hear josh sigh.
"If... if that was true that might change something but he's not sorry. He does hate me, and nothing I do will get him to see how bad he hurt me. I lo- I like you and I think it might be safest for me not to talk to oli," josh says.
Before I start talking I look at oli to see tears in his eye. Maybe I should hang up- "I'm s-sorry. I d-dont hate you joshie.." Oli says wiping the tears but more fall.
"Oli..?" Josh asks and oli starts crying. Real crying.
"I'll call you back josh. Think about it, he is sorry," I say and press the hang up button. Oli puts the phone down and hugs me. Thankfully my top half is dry so he doesn't get water all over himself as I hug back.
"I miss him," he says and I nod a little as I hum.
I hope josh isn't upset..
I hope he forgives Oli too and then doesn't freak out when oli tells josh about Hannah and Lily. Oli needs love and definitely no more stress.
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