Oli's pov
I knock on Vic's door and surprisingly he doesn't close the door in my face. I dont understand why he doesn't hate me.. I treated him so bad..
Nevertheless Vic smiles when he sees me. "Hi Oli," he says letting me in his room. I haven't had a conversation with him since I broke his heart.. He's attempted to talk to me but I've only said rude things back to shut him up.
If he was smart he would hate me or at least tell me to go away. "Hey.." I say and he sits on his bed and crosses his bare legs. He has some of the nicest legs I've seen in my life. It's hard to choose between him and kellin. Kellin's legs are really pale and doll like and I love that but vic's are completely different.
He has tan muscular legs, he runs track so it's obvious he would have strong legs. Josh's legs- "how have you been?" Vic interrupts my thoughts.
"Hmm.. better. I came to apologize for hurting you.. and for ignoring you instead of helping," I say and lean on his door. He bites his lip and looks away. He shrugs a little.
"You didn't hurt me. You didn't help, but you didn't cause it," he says and looks at me at the end. He seems to believe his words but I don't. I know I was bad for him. Since I was so depressed and down all the time it rubbed off on him.
He started cutting while we were dating.. It was my fault. "Well whatever. I am sorry and I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry I dragged you down with me," I says and he pats the spot next to him.
I get up and go over and sit on his bed with him. I feel so exhausted and confused. Josh hugged me no more than five minutes ago.. It was like he cared about me..
"Apologies accepted. Dont worry about our past or the things me or you've done in the past. We are slowly but surely getting better," he says with a smile. He doesn't know that I'm getting better. I'm not. Or am I? I've had a few better days recently because of kellin..
That is better than no good days when I didn't know him..
I just nod a little. I'm not sure if he's really getting better but he seems happy right now. I didn't come here to check on him or anything. He'll be okay even if I dont ask if he is really okay.
Vic is strong and even though he's cut in the past doesn't mean he does now or that he's not okay. For now I'll trust him when he says he's okay. It's none of my business and I dont want it to be, I have enough problems.
Josh talks to Vic so I'm sure if he's not okay he'll talk to josh. Or even kellin, they seem to be friends. I dated Vic before I dated Josh do it's been a long time since I've talked to Vic. Even when I worked at Starbucks I didn't talk to Josh or Vic. Well, unless I was getting mad at them.
I'm pretty sure vic told josh about us a lot because josh knows I hurt Vic. I certainly didn't tell him. "You look tired," vic says grabbing me and pulling me into a laying position before I can resist. He lays next to me and I dont feel like getting back up.
I look at his ceiling and he faces me and puts his hand on my flat stomach. "I still think you're beautiful," he says and I look at him to see he just looks happy to have me here. He looks hopeful..
Me beautiful? Nah..
The thought that he actually does like my appearance makes me feel a little better. I'm so tired and empty.. my mind is still fuzzy from the xanax too. I close me eyes even though I know he's looking at me.
Xanax helps me not care that I'm ugly. I feel relaxed and calm about who I am. "You're better looking but thanks," I mumble. Vic starts playing with my hair gently and I sigh softly. I missed Vic..
I'm going to take a nap..
He won't mind and I'm tired...
Thoughts?
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