Getting Away with Gluttony

Kabanata 55

To: KhrizzshaVentura@gmail.com

Subject: To the Future Mother Of My Kids

This letter is long overdue.

I'm not really good at writing notes or letters. I'd rather tell you this in person, straightforward, you know.

You're a ball of sunshine, a literal ball.
Bubbly shape. Bubbly personality.
Never thought I'd be appreciating every curve you had.

The first time I encountered you, noong nag-reason out ka for being late in the class, natakot na ako eh. Lalo pa noong sinabi mong hahanap ka ng businessman as a prospect for husband, kinabahan ako kasi alam ko, dama ko. Ako nasa top 1 list mo.

I always see you around, I noticed how you keep on staring at me. I'm almost freaking out.

When you blocked my car in the driveway, jumping like a lost pig, you annoyed the hell out of me. You frustrate me. You scared me, terrified too. You surprised me. You made me feel different emotions. You made me feel so alive. Even though you said I'll die anytime.

You've been my cute guardian angel, then.
Always reminding me to stay safe and sound.

When you jumped on me that day, kahit medyo masakit pa ang katawan ko noon from the accident I had with that professor, my heart jumped out as well seeing how relieved you are.

Ayos lang mabugbog, I appreciated how you cared for me. Pero ang bigat mo talaga that time. Sobra. Buti na lang strong 'to. (Flexing my muscles, here.)

You almost thought I'm your TOTGA. Akala mo hindi ko alam ang ibig sabihin niyan? I searched it on google. I am not your TOTGA. I am actually your HTMAAB. Di mo alam 'yan? It's for you to find out, too, sunshine. Haha.

When I slowly accepted the fact that my life is too short, that I should spend the time left on something memorable. I've read your email and decided to fulfill your HD with me.  I knew it.  Akala mo ha.

It was the funniest date I ever had. Hearing you scream, kahit basag na yong eardrums ko. Seeing you eat like there's no tomorrow, drinking like a pro pero lasing na sa panglimang baso and dancing like a baby shark kahit na pinagtitinginan ka na ng ibang tao.

You're so real. You got me by your genuineness. Then, we ended up sleeping together. Me, hugging you spoon style never crossed my mind. Kahit pa ginawa mo akong unan at nangatal ang braso ko. Naglaway ka pa noon. Gross!

But I've never seen someone as beautifully disastrous as you are. Ipupusta ko ang lahat ng bilbil mo, I swear I felt something warm tugged my heart by watching you asleep. That morning, I wished to have more mornings ahead so I could wake up next to you, cuddling you.