Letters to a Rockstar

Gone too soon :-(

I laughed as my boys played on Pegasus's back. The horse neighed a sweet sound. It sounded like a bird but it was her.
Her white coat shimmered in the sunshine. The light catching it and I could see rainbow strands hit. Her feathers were pink and blue. And they twinkled in the light.
Patrick laughed as she licked his face softly. She neighed. And nuzzled against Hercules who was beside them. He turned towards me and I smiled.

" Boys! We need to get going here soon. It's almost time for your naps. Give him and Meg hugs and tell them thank you." I said as they nodded. Ashton hopped down from Pegasus and lost his balance. I went sprinting towards him but he landed in the clouds and laughed. He sat up and gave them hugs and Patrick followed suit.

"Can we please watch Pink Panther for a while?" Ashton asked as I carried a sleepy Patrick.
I sighed a big sigh and nodded. He gave me his daddy's grin and I could not help but smile back. His looks were so much like Ashley. His thick black hair. His brown eyes. His personality. Patrick was identical except his eyes. He got my eyes. I recall when he opened them the evening after I gave birth. I gasped in shock and my heart skipped a beat.

Later on after I put my babies down for a nap, something hit me. I did a quick calculation in my head. And realized it was my wedding anniversary. My heart dropped to my stomach at the thought of the pain that my husband must be going through. I went over to my memoryscope and dialed in on him.

"Oh baby. I am so sorry." I said as he walked over to my grave. He had on all black again and he was alone this time. He bent down and I saw tears flow from his eyes. He had glasses on but I still noticed. He was looking down and I heard him speak. " When I saw you stroll down the isle with Sebastian, my heart skipped a beat. You looked so gorgeous baby. Your dress was just incredible. I fell in love with you all over again. And to see you suffering so badly was killing me. I know you are healthier and not suffering. But god damnit! Why did you have to leave me Chelsea???? I wanted more time with you. I wanted to spend more time raising our boys. That year was the best year of my life. I have and always will love you. Please know I'll never ever ever stop loving you." He said with tears rolling down his face from his sunglasses.

I knew that this would be another tough hurdle to cross. But as I was watching him cry I also saw his strength. He was pulling through. My biggest worry was that he was not going to be able to handle this.

I watched him as he stood back up and took something out from his pocket. I noticed it was a small blue box. He opened it and it was my wedding ring set. He knelt back down and set it on my site. He then sang our song and cried his eyes out.

I saw another figure walk up towards him slowly and carefully. She too had all black on. It was my mom. She put a hand on his shoulder and he stood up. She pulled him into a hug as they shared tears as they stood next to my grave.

I knew that I should go down there. But I was not able to with the boys. That was against the rules. Only once was I allowed. And that was to let them have closure.

I felt helpless as I watched them morn over my death. "Chelsea? Are you home my child?" I heard Zeus say as he strolled into my house. I shot up from my position and stood up straight.

He looked at me and smiled a sad smile. "I know what today is. And I came here to see how you were holding up." He said as he sat down on a chair. The poor chair broke due to his size.
"Oh dear! I'm so sorry Chelsea!! I'll have that fixed right away!" He said as I laughed.
"Let me sir." I said and snapped my fingers. It was as good as new. "I forgot about that up here." He said with a deep, hearty chuckle. He walked back over to where he came and looked down at me. "The boys are doing good. Hercules was quite impressed with their behavior. Ashley did good raising them." He said and gently patted my shoulder and strolled away. I watched the icon stroll off and he stopped and looked back and waived. He smiled and turned back around and headed back up to his home. 

"Mommy?" I heard Patrick say. My head snapped down and he reached up for me. I smiled and scooped my baby into my arms. "Why was Zeus here?" He asked  as he curled into my neck snuggling his stuffed Octopus. "He was here to talk to mommy about daddy and tell me how well behaved you two were." I said as I stroked his jet black hair. His hair was just like Ashley's. I always will hate that they were taken away from him. 

"Baby? Was there something that scared you?" I asked as his brown eyes looked up at me. He shook his head and hopped back down. "I just heard Zeus. I'm going to go back to bed now mommy." He said as he stumbled over his feet and yawned. He fell over a rug and he was out.
I smiled as I picked him up and carried him back to bed. Ashton was awake but he was still sleepy. He watched me put his twin back and rolled back over. I heard his breathing and I knew he was asleep.

I watched them for a while before heading to get changed into clean clothes. I walked into my room and decided on a gorgeous floor length black and brown lace dress. It was given to me to wear for a date. The same date that he proposed to me. The lace was black with brown underneath. It was form fitting at the waist and flowed into a loose skirt. The top was skin tight spandex with the same lace. A wide, black, satin ribbon went around the waist and tied into a bow in the back. The front was black and dipped into a scoop neck with thin straps. It was chosen by Andy and Juliet. They were told to keep me busy. And they took me shopping. The dress costed a grand but they insisted on buying it.
I slipped it on and emotions raced through me like fire. I was in tears in seconds flat. I missed him so badly. It was not fair. None of what happened to him was.

I ended up crying myself to sleep on the bed. Dreaming about that wonderful night of getting proposed to.