Letters to a Rockstar

Good times bad times

" Are you SURE Chelsea??" My doctor said as we talked about my treatments. We were bumping them up more and I was scared. Knowing that the damage would be detrimental on my organs and reproductive parts. I could stop them or go up one.
"Bump it up. This is not taking my life. I want to live longer." I said as my mom dropped her head and tears rolled onto the floor of my room. She held my hand as the doctor nodded and began the stronger treatment.
I can only describe this pain as liquid acid into my body. It was enough to make me throw up. My doctor quickly began a nausea drip. And saline. "Better?" She said as my grip lessened on my moms hand. She had not looked up since I said stronger.
"Much." I said as my boyfriend came into the room. And saw me getting my treatment. He has hated these since he saw me vomit with one. He backed up and stepped back out of the room and headed back downstairs. I heard Remington ask what's wrong as he walked out the door. I jumped at the door slamming and in seconds my ears were bleeding.
"Fuck!" My doctor said as she grabbed cotton and stuffed them into my ears. "Ashley is just having a hard time. He will be okay. I promise." Andy said as he walked in on the ears bleeding. He sat down and patted my legs. "How's this one going babe?" He asked as I closed my eyes to try to not cry. It was still burning but not as bad. I showed a thumbs down and he nodded. He gave me a small smile and stayed beside me. "Ashley just hates to see you endure this. That's all. He is not mad at anyone. Just let me talk to him about this. And he will be fine." He said as I nodded. Speaking was not possible right now. I was beginning to feel sleepy.
"We are almost done babe. After this you can take a nap okay?" She said as my mom sat up and kissed my head. "I'm so proud of you babe. You are the bravest girl I have ever seen. I" She was interrupted by the doorbell.
We heard Molly bark loudly and protectively. I looked alarmed as a female voice spoke up. She did not sound in any way familiar. Andy perked his head up and groaned. "That would be Juliet." He said. I patted beside me and he smiled. He crawled up beside me and carefully wrapped an arm around me.
My body curled into his and I was comfortable. I had always felt at ease with him. Next to Jinxx and Ashley. Andy was like a brother to me.
I heard footsteps coming upstairs as I drifted off. I felt a massive pain shoot through me and I screamed. I don't know where it was coming from. But it hurt. Everywhere.
My doctor looked me over and shook her head. "Her nervous system is getting affected. Let me give her a muscle relaxer. To take the edge off. Brace yourself Andy. She's going to scream bloody murder. This is the strongest and fastest one." She said as he nodded.
"OH FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT HUUUUUUUUUOHSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I screamed as she gave me the shot. I vomited into a bucket as she finished. She flushed me out and settled me back down and left me be. She patted my legs and went to wash her hands.
"Jesus! What the hell was that?!?" Juliet asked as she stood there in shock. She was unable to move due to the events that took place just minutes ago. Andy motioned to have her come over and she nodded. "She just had her chemotherapy and then nerve pain. She got a painful shot and it made her sick. She's now content. I can't move though. She's falling asleep." He said as he kissed her softly. And wiped her tears away. I opened my eyes and looked over at the brunette. I reached out a hand and she gingerly took it. She saw the additional port on my hand. She frowned and patted my hand. " I decided to stay here with you for a month. Since the boys will be back out on tour here soon. To give you some company." She said softly.
I gave a thumbs up and she smiled. "I am going to lay down for a while. I'll see you guys in a bit." She said softly and kissed Andy and patted my hand and dropped it gently onto Andy.
I watched her walk out and head to her room. I looked at Andy and he frowned. "Ashley was supposed to tell you this. I am sorry. We will be gone for four months. She will join us at the end of the month. And Sammi doll will take her place. She has missed you. I'll leave you rest babe. I'm going to take to Ash right now." He said as I nodded and he gently unwound his body from mine. I hugged my stuffed three headed dog and my eyes closed. He kissed my head and walked out.
A few hours later and I woke up and I saw my boyfriend watching something on my iPad. He looked up and smiled. His brown eyes were full of worry. He got up and sat next to me. He put my pad down and kissed me softly. His hands stroking my bald head. "No wigs?" He asked as I shook my head. "I hated them. They were not real hair. Mom is taking me to get some more scarves tomorrow. So your leaving?" I said as he nodded and I frowned. I was bracing myself for another round of heartbreaks.
He must have saw my face and he cupped my face and smiled. "I have learned my lesson babe. I am not going to lose you anymore. I promise." He said as he suddenly bent down on one knee and opened up a box. "I promise to stay true to you. I love you and want to make you mine one day. Until then, here is a token of my love for you." He said as he slipped on a stunning ring. It was a large raw cut black diamond with white gold spiraled around it. The band was black diamonds.
I nodded as he smiled and put the ring onto my left finger. He leaned up and kissed me softly and slowly. I pulled him closer and he gently leaned over me and broke the kiss. "I love you babe. I will never ever ever break your heart again. I will marry you when the time is right. But for now, that is my promise to stay faithful to you." He said as he leaned back and patted my legs.
My eyes drifted closed as Molly hopped up on bed. And nuzzled her way up beside me. Her wet nose tickled my arm. I lifted it up and she laid on top of my stomach and fell asleep.
I sighed a content sigh and dozed into a deep deep deep sleep.