Letters to a Rockstar

Game over

I woke back up and I looked. Ashley was laying beside me looking at my pictures on my phone. I saw him stop at one when I had long, black, waistlength thick hair. 

"I loved my hair. More then anything in this world. To have that leave was like removing a limb for me. I wish I could have laid eyes on you then. Then you would see me beautiful and healthy." I said as I sat up and grabbed my blanket that Emerson made for me. I stood up and pulled my wheelchair closer to me and I sat down and covered myself up. "You deserve someone like that. I am sorry you have to see me this way now." I said as I wheeled myself out of my room and down my ramp.

I got to the bottom and I saw Andy fast asleep on the couch. Juliet was curled next to him. Her hair was spread across them both as I looked away with jealousy and hurt. I wanted to cut her hair off so I would not have to look at it. 

My eyes shifted towards the patio and I headed out there. I opened the door and pushed open with my chair and went out on the patio. I spotted Monica laying down with my brother. Her hair was spread across his lap. 

I pushed forcefully away and rounded a corner and went and sat in a hanging chair. I put my hands on my head and tears burned as they fell down. "Chelsea?" I heard Ashley say as I turned away. Avoiding eye contact. I pulled out a Halloween wig I had worn when I was Wednesday Addams one year. I pulled it on and looked his way. He walked over to me and sat down beside me in a chair. 

He slowly reached up and pulled it off my head and laid it in his lap. His hand rubbed my bald head. I grabbed for my wig and thrusted it back on my head. I was determined to look beautiful. Not like a freak who is dying of a disease. And had to lose her hair cause of the treatments. He deserved to be with a normal girl who had her hair and a normal life.

"After this round of treatments I am stopping." I said as I looked up at him with my wig on. He pulled the wig off again and with force and anger he threw it down. He spun me around to face him and I saw anger in his eyes. "YOU DO NOT GET IT DO YOU!!?? I DO NOT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOUR GOD DAMN HAIR!!" He yelled causing me to scream out and hold my ears. I saw my brother race around to us and scoop me into his arms. He carried me inside and straight to the bathroom. 

Monica grabbed some cotton and gently put some in each ear. She pulled out the soaked ones and replaced it. Seconds later she did the same thing. This lasted for half an hour while Remington stood outside and yelled at Ashley. He knew better then to yell like this. But he has a temper and he lost control. 

The bleeding slowed down as I sighed. Monica threw all them away after counting them. She shook her head and frowned. "Its getting worse babe. You may need to start the shots sooner then you want." She said as she washed her hands and I washed mine. I knew the shots she was talking about and they were worse then my strongest muscle relaxers. These would cause me to vomit back up blood. Cause of the reaction it put my body through.

"I know. I already decided on what to do. Hence him going off on me like that. After this round of treatments, I am calling it quits. I cannot take this anymore Monica. I need some sort of normalcy and Ashley was looking at my hair on my phone. And I could tell he was wanting that Chelsea back. He never knew that one. All he has known is this one." I said as she shook her head slowly. 

"No babe. Not yet. Please. Don't call it quits yet. You promised you would wait until the two years were up. We cannot lose you yet. Please don't do this." She said as tears rolled down her beautiful face. 

"Its done. My doctor has enough for this month. After that game over." I said as she shook her head again and cried into a towel. I leaped down from the counter and she composed herself to help me out of the bathroom and Sebastian carried me back downstairs. Monica crying into her towel as Larisa came and comforted her. "What did you do to her?" He asked as he sat me down beside shy and Emerson. Emerson pulled me closer and kissed my bald head. "I told her I am calling it quits after this round of medicine." I said as everyone turned to me in shock.