Letters to a Rockstar

Love goes both ways

"No! I don't want to get married now!" I said to a very stubborn Ashley. "I want an actual wedding! Not another elope." I said as he sat down.

"You don't have a lot of time left babe. We don't know when you will die. With just doing it on our own, we will just be married." He said as I shook my head. "I did that once and I am not doing it again. I want an actual wedding. With a dress and flowers and my family." I said as we sat in my room. He had came in and asked me about just getting married right now. Running off to the courthouse and exchanging vows. So we would be married. 

"YOU are fucking dying!!!!!!!!!!!! I would LIKE to have my wife be alive when we HAVE kids!" He said. I looked at him with shock and anger. I got up to walk away and my hips screamed. He grabbed me but I pushed him away.  He dropped me and I fell and hit my head on the floor. The last thing I saw was my ceiling before I saw nothing.

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"This is your fucking fault! You just HAD to get pissed and drop her. Now she is out cold!" Emerson said to Ashley as he tended to Chelsea. Ashley had dropped her on her head after she shoved him away during their fight. Emerson had found her laying on her floor, a golf-ball sized bump on her head. He had heard them fighting prior and then he stormed out of the room. Emerson came to check on her and found her on the floor. 

He glared at him with absolute disgust as he sat beside her. She had not moved since their fight. She was alive, she just was knocked out when he dropped her. Ashley looked sorry but the anger was too much for Emerson. 

"You promised us you would not hurt her. WHY ARE YOU EVEN fucking marrying her???? Are you going to treat her like this for the remaining days she has on this earth like a god damn ragdoll????????????????? You have got to grow the FUCK UP! She loves you more then you fucking deserve here Purdy. Love has to go both ways. I will not allow you to marry her if you keep this up." He said with venom in his voice. 

Ashley just sat there and looked at her. He was in shock and realized what he had done. She could have died from his careless actions. Anger needed to be under control if he was going to walk down the isle with her. He stood up and walked out of the room and downstairs and outside on the patio. He sat down and sighed a deep sigh. It was cold outside. The windows were down over the screens now. They had the heat on low out here. 

**Ashley's POV**

I knew what I did was nothing short of careless. She could have died. She almost died last time she hit her head hard. She had a concussion and had to be taken back home. She had hit her head on the bunk in their bus and started vomiting as Jinxx carried her out and laid her down. Ashley was beside himself then, even though it was not his fault. She was forced to leave Warped and head back home. That was the hardest thing to do at the time. 

Then I ran into an ex of mine. Jeanna. 

The girl got a makeover and I was floored. We began flirting and talking. She was more then willing to fuck me. I could tell. And I was too fucked up to even care. She took a selfie with me and we went back to the bus. She posted it and Chelsea found out. That led to her calling and breaking it off with me. Jeanna was all over me during the call. It was hard to even comprehend what Chelsea was saying. All I recall is her screaming and ending it. 

The next fuck up was when she saw me and Samantha during a photo shoot. She took it the wrong way. I had just gotten her back into my life and we were on stable grounds. I tried to explain but she was not going to have it. The guys were fit to be tied and almost kicked me out of the band. Chelsea was then refusing to even talk to me. 

Once I found out she tried taking her life again cause of me, I knew things had to change. I had flown out to see her and talk to her after her last letter. Andy and I made plans and flew out there after the wedding. We got to the hospital and we had to wait to have her get out of surgery. Once she was able to be seen, and I saw her eyes open up. I knew she was the one. Her beautiful blue sapphires looked at me. She then went into cardiac arrest and we were forced out of the room. Her heart was giving out and she was in surgery with her brother that night.