Letters to a Rockstar

City of Angels

I watched as my twins played with Zeus and I smiled. I was still shaken that they were here. I decided to check on Ashley.

I walked over to a memoryscope and I dialed in my name and got ready. I saw that he was shaking and trying to comprehend the fact that his boys were gone. It pained me to no end. But! There was nothing that I could do to stop this. They both were hit dead on. And both died on impact. I heard him say that this was not fair. And Andy pulled him into a hug as both cried. Juliet was beside them both and rubbed both of their backs and cried.

I saw CC walk into our house and he was unaware of what happened. He was there to hang out with Andy and Juliet.  He took one look at the situation and knew something bad had happened. He saw Ashley's eyes and Andy crying. Andy and Ashley never cried. He sat down and Anna sat beside him. "What happened and what is Ashley doing here? Where are the twins?" He asked as Andy composed himself and told him. Anna looked at him and held onto CC as he began to cry.  

Jake and Ella came racing inside at top speed. Ella shut the door as Jake hung up. I looked and Juliet had been on the phone. She was better and was able to call and let him know. Jake sat on the floor beside them and broke down and cried. Ella held onto him and cried. 

"Did anyone tell Jinxx?" Jake asked as he calmed back down. Nobody said a word. He ran a hand through his hair and pulled out his phone. He told him and he had to hold the phone away. Jinxx yelled and he hung up. Ten minutes later, him and Sammi flew through the door at top speed. He collapsed beside Ella and cried. 

Ashley composed himself and he looked horrible. His eyes were bloodshot and he looked pale. He sat down and took a shaky deep breath. He pretty soon began to cry all over again. I knew that he was not going to be able to hold it together. This pain was just too much for him. I was told that my babies had internal injuries and bleeding flooded instantly. The guy who hit them was beside himself. They decided to not press charges.

Why?

The worst part of it all was who did this.

My ex husband. 

He was running late and ran a red light. And did not see my boys. He hit them dead on. And he was a basket case I guess. Ashley said that he knew it was not intentional. And did not wanna hassle with the legal shit. 

My boys came walking towards me and I lifted them into my arms. One on each leg. 

"Mommy? Can you take us down to see daddy?" Patrick asked. I looked at him and he had tears falling down his face. He had gotten my eyes. And Ashton got Ashley's. I shook my head no. "No baby. You are going to be living up here with me from now on. And you will get to play with all these wonderful people. Later I will take you to get some toys okay? You and your brother need to get some dinner and get ready for bed okay?" I said as they both cried and nodded. 

" I know babies. I know. You are going to have fun................up here.........with mommy." I said softly as i began to cry. I hated to explain that they were dead and up away from daddy for good. I would not put them through a visit. It would mess them up worse then they already were. 

I carried both boys back to my home and I stood them up in our open house. They wiped their faces and raced around the wide space. They spotted their favorite toys and they sprinted over to them at top speed. I smiled softly as I walked into the kitchen. I thought about what to make and I decided on broccoli and cheese and coconut shrimp. Up until they were taken from him, Ashley had introduced them to a wide variety of food. 

I walked back into the room and sat down and watched them. They were playing with a sushi set. I smiled as they chopped up the toys. 

"Mommy?" Ashton asked after a minute. I looked up at him. I looked at him as he stopped playing and crawled over to me. He motioned to be picked up and I lifted him up. He looked at me and asked the following words that I was dreading to hear.

"Why are we up here with you?" He asked as I took a deep sigh. I was never around long enough to answer questions. "You and Patrick got hurt baby and you came up here. Cause you were too sick to live with daddy." I said as tears threatened to fall. He began to cry and Patrick followed suit. 

I picked them up and rocked them back and forth. This was not going to be easy. I felt them calm back down and we went and ate our dinner. They munched on their food and talked about their toys as they ate. They had forgotten about what had happened shortly beforehand. I sighed a deep sigh. When they were done, I snapped my fingers and fresh pears in gold bowls appeared. They ate them up and I saw Patrick yawn. I rubbed his head as he finished his fruit. Once they were done, I snapped my fingers and it went away.

"You guys need to go pick up the toys and we need to get you ready for bed." I said as they nodded. They got down and walked in and picked up the toys. They headed back to meet me and I scooped them up and carried them into their room. 

I had asked to have a house that was surrounded by the stars. They delivered. I had a house that looked upon the stars and you heard soft music echoing all around. Their beds were like what they had back at home. And they saw their favorite stuffed octopus on their beds. I watched them walk around and I smiled. 

"Lets get you guys changed into pajamas." I said as they smiled. They walked over to me and I snapped my fingers and they had matching Harry Potter jammies. They yawned and raced towards their beds. I laughed as they crawled under their warm beds and dozed off into nod. I kissed them both and glided out of their room. 

I made myself noodles and sat down and watched the city from below. 

I smiled to myself as I ate my noodles and I knew that things were going to turn out just fine. I was going to pay Astro our astrologist a visit here tomorrow. I wanted to see what he was seeing for the future. I wanted to make sure that Ashley would not take his life. And that he would be happy once again on the earth.

I finished my noodles and glided over and washed out my bowl and put it away. I grabbed a chocolate chip cookie and ice cold milk and went back over. 

" I am so sorry Ashley. I never wanted you to lose your family. Please forgive me." I said softly and took a bite of my fresh, warm cookie. 

I leaned against the side of my open air house and bent my leg up and dangled the other over the ledge. 

I finished my cookie and I snapped my fingers and my glass evaporated. I went over to my memoryscope and typed in KROPP. 

I dialed it in and looked. 

My mother was pacing back and forth. Her face was slightly red. I saw my brothers arrive home and they stopped at the sight of our mom. They hardly ever saw her pace. She only did it when something BAD had happened. 

My mom led them to a couch and sat them down.

"Boys, there was an accident earlier this afternoon. I tried to call you guys from the studio but I could not get ahold of you. Chelsea's ex husband was rushing to work and he ran a red light. The twins were with Candace. They were crossing the street to go to Build a bear. They got killed on impact. Candace has a broken leg and bruises." She said as she broke down and cried. 

Emerson shook his head as his eyes filled with tears. He pulled his hat off and dropped to his knees and screamed and cried. I did not see Shy at first. She came racing into the room from the bathroom. She grabbed her boyfriend and held onto him. He bawled like a baby in her arms.

I saw Monica come flying through the front door. She was on her phone with Remington. And all he was able to get out was Twins died. She hung up and grabbed him into a hug. 

Larisa was on her way. I saw my mom hang up from talking to her. I watched her speed towards the house at top speed.

She got there and slammed her car into park and shut her car off. She sprinted into the house and straight to Sebastian. She knew and she held onto him tightly as he sobbed. Remington held onto my mom as she cried her eyes out. 

I pushed it away and sobbed quietly into my pillows.