I Love Him, It Hurts

Chapter 46

Naihatid naman ako ng maayos ng driver niya at nasabi ko naman ang address, hindi pa nga sana papapasukin sa subdivision pero nakita ako n'ong guard kaya nakapasok kami, mahigpit talaga after what happened.

Akala ko sa nangyaring iyon ay magiiba na naman ang nararamdaman ko, na hindi na naman kami magkakausap matapos iyon pero mali ako, nagpunta siya dito sa bahay para kausapin ako at humingi ng sorry sa nangyari kinabahan lang naman ako kasi baka maulit iyong dati, pero tiwala na ako ngayon.

"I did that for her i admit" panimula niya nasa garden kami ngayon at magkatabing naguusap.

"W-why?"

"She's my cousin-"

"I know and i understand it's just that nasaktan din naman ako, pero bakit parang ako lang ang may kasalanan sa nangyari?" para akong batang na-guidance dito.

"I'm sorry, i know i was wrong to act like that, but i needed to... she needs me" aniya. "She's depressed, she has so many things to understand, that she really needs to understand, but she doesn't want to kami ang nahihirapan para sa kanya pero kailangan namin siyang tulungan" paliwanag naman niya and i'm open for this kind of conversation.

Tumango ako. "I'm sorry. Nasampal ko siya kasi nagulat lang din ako sa sinabi niya pero iyon lang ang nagawa ko at maybe duon sa nasabi ko sa kanya na-triggered siya and i already said sorry after i slapped her" sabi ko naman.

There's no need to defend myself, pareho kami ni Shanna na may kasalanan at feeling ko kas may kasalanan ako kasi hindi ko alam ang nararamdaman niya na she's going through something in her personal life, nagkamali lang din ako.

"She, she's the one who instructed the girl who harmed you" sa sinabi niyang iyon ang nagpagulat sa akin.

Tiningnan ko siya diretso sa mata niya. "Y-you knew?"

"She confessed to me why she did that to you, why she wants you dead i just knew yesterday" aniya at nag-iwas ng tingin sa akin.

"W-why she would do that?" naiiyak kong tanong sa kanya.

"She told that she's so jealous of you, she envy you and she hates you" dirediretso niyang sabi sa akin.

Napailing ako. "That's bullshit, Spade"

"I-i know and i understand kung gusto mo siyang makulong dahil sa ginawa niya sa 'yo" he said, but his eyes are telling me otherwise.

Umiling ako. "Do you think, i can do that? That i will still tell to the investigators or to the police that the one who instructed someone to hurt me is a depressed person and currently has problems to face? I'm not like that, you know me better, i cannot do that" baka mapaano pa si Shanna kapag ginawa ko iyon sa kanya, and that's my guilt if something really bad happen to her.

"I-i know, you are an angel, Venissa, but if your family wants to send Shanna in jail i won't protest" aniya pero ramdam ko ang lungkot sa boses niya.

"Jail isn't the right place, take her to a psychologist for some counseling that would help her" i suggested.

There's no way that i could send such person to jail, because for me she's not thinking straight and she's just fed up by her thoughts of me that she could be jealous and envious. She hurt me, i know, but i don't think it's right if i want her to be hurt too. She's on depression and the only way that could save her is seeing a health professional not the lawyers.

If they hurt you, never hurt them back because you will be just like them nothing's different. Help them, in a way that you know what's the best for them and instead of wishing them bad luck just pray for them.