Holding Onto You

Ch. 30

Demi's pov

"We're staying right?" Ava hiccups.

"We are staying, we aren't leaving her. We'll get a hotel room, but I know you and your mom aren't going to leave her side tonight. I'm going to have to take Bella somewhere because this is going to be a lot for her." Wilmer says.

"I don't want to stay, I feel sick. I don't want to see her like this." Emilio says.

I walk down the hall several steps behind the kids with Bella in my arms, "I'm staying with mom. I won't leave her like this." Ava hiccups.

Wilmer wraps a protective arm around her as I feel Bellas head fall into my shoulder, "Ava she's in the best care she can be in right now. They life flighted her to the best hospital she could be at here. You're sister is so strong and if anyone can pull through this, it's her."

"I know, it just hurts." She cries quietly.

"I know Ava." Wilmer says gently.

We get to a glass door and Wilmer opens it quietly before letting Ava and Emilio walk in before him. He continues to hold it open until I walk through and its after that when he quietly closes it. I make eye contact with him as I see the kids stand in the front of her bed.

I break the eye contact and stand to Maya's right at her bed railing. The only sound heard in the room is the sound of multiple different beeping noises. As I look down at Maya I see a heart monitor connected to her chest, an iv in her arm, her on life support, and multiple other wires connected to her.

As my eyes travel up I see her badly bruised and swollen face and collar bones. So much of her body is just bruised and I can't even imagine how much pain she was in before she fell into this coma.

It breaks my heart having to imagine all of this. I know Maya's last feelings were pain and fear. I can't imagine how terrified she was to be in that situation alone. I can't begin to imagine the level of pain she was in because of this. I don't want to think about how long she was sitting in the car mortified and in so much pain before things went black. It hurts more than I can put into words trying to imagine it all. I don't want to imagine it, but it's all my minds doing right now.

"She's so pale. She looks like a ghost." Emilio whispers.

"I feel like her entire soul has left her body and we're just looking at her shell. This doesn't even look like her anymore." Ava cries.

I pass Bella off to Wilmer before walking to Ava. I open my arms and she walks into them placing her head into my chest, "It hurts." She cries.

I swallow the lump in my throat, "I know it does Ava, this is hard. Maya wouldn't want to see you cry though. You know she was the one to always wipe your tears and tell you not to cry over her because she'd be ok. She'd just tell us to keep strong, that she'd be ok. We've got to keep strong for her right now angel. She's not gone, she's still here. We have to keep hopeful and optimistic. Maya has so much strength and we haven't even seen all of it. She's made it through so much and pulled through so many things doctors wouldn't think she would. From the moment she was born she was fighting. In that moment, it was for air. Her lungs didn't develop correctly and within a week she had a fever so high that she had a seizure in the nicu. When you two were so tiny she ended up with sepsis and fought for her life during that. This is something we just have to let her fight through Ava and believe in her. She's fought through so much and made it through all of that. None of us can count her out now." I say.

"You said the doctors didn't think she'd even wake up momma." She cries.

I hold her tighter in my arms and rest my chin on top of her head trying to figure out how to make this better. I overshared the information with her.