Holding Onto You

Ch. 5

Mayas pov

Pain. That's all I feel. The only thing that's ever been up there is a tampon. The amount of painful objects she's shoved up there I lost count. There is no pleasure. I don't understand how any of this feels good to anyone.

"You know, you're crying, is kind of ruining it. If you can't take it then just fucking say you quit." Kenzie snaps.

I wipe my tears and take a few deep breaths as I do my best to calm down, "It's ok, I'll stop, I promise."

She shoves her fist further up and I bite the inside of my lip so hard I just taste a mouthful of blood. Everything inside me wants to scream at the amount of pain she's causing, but I can't. Not if I want to make things better and I do.

This isn't even the most painful thing she's done, but after everything she's done so far, it's become the most painful.

"This would be hotter if you lose more weight so I could see my fist inside you better."

I don't even want to know what she means by that. I'm afraid to look and find out what she means by that.

"I will." My voice shakes.

It feels like an absolute eternity beneath her before she finally decides to call it quits. It's not until I attempt to sit up when I feel even more pain. I get dressed and she minds no attention to me.

As I stand I feel liquid and it's not until I look down when I see blood beginning to stain my shorts.

"Well, my parents are about to be back." She comments.

"Oh, ok, I'll see you tomorrow?" I ask.

"Yeah, I guess."

"I love you." I say.

"Love you too." She mumbles not too sincerely.

I leave her room and go to my car to see it's 10 am now. With the worst 4 hours of my life now done, I leave. But in no shape to go home I call my friend Bailey, "Oh my gosh your crying, are you ok?" She asks immediately.

"Can I come over?" I sob.

"Yes, the front doors already unlocked."

"Thank you." I say.

"Of course. I'm gonna hang up so you can focus on driving." She says before I hear the like go dead.

It takes only a few minutes to get to her house and when I do I very painfully walk up the stairs. The second she sees me her eyes water, "What happened to you? Why are you crying? Why are you bleeding?" She asks.

"Kenzie." I sob.

She jumps out of her bed and grabs a pair of underwear, shorts, and disappears for a few moments before passing me underwear with a pad and shorts.

I take the hint to change and she takes my shorts and tosses them into the dirty clothes hamper, "I'll just tell my mom I started my period, don't worry about it. Come on, let's lay down." She says.

I don't argue with what she says and do as I'm told. Immediately, her arms wrap around me and I just sob, "What happened?"

"We got back together and I went to her house. She was still mad and said stop being clingy and don't get into my bed until we have sex. So I asked if that's make her feel better and she said she wouldn't know, we've never done it. I just wanted to make things better and so I did it and it hurts. It hurts so fucking much." I cry.

"Ohmygodohmygodohmygod." She panics.

"What?" I ask.

"Maya, your bleeding. She tore your hymen. This is serious. You shouldn't be bleeding like this. Not even after the first time. It's normal to bleed a little bit not the amount you are." She says.