Holding Onto You

Ch. 42

Demi's pov

After Maya finishes her breakfast I take her plate downstairs and rinse it off as Wilmer walks into the kitchen, "Did she eat?" He asks.

"Yeah, she ate everything I put on her plate. She was so busy talking I don't think she was really thinking about what she was doing." I say.

"What do you mean by that?"

"She was just very talkative this morning and had a lot of questions and it seemed like the more she talked and listened, the more she ate with ease." I say.

"What'd she have to say?" He asks curiously.

"Well, evidently she watched glee on the hospital and watched my parts in it. So she then wanted to know if I told my parents about my sexuality at the time of glee, because she remembers me saying I came out to them after Cool For The Summer. So I explained that since she was so interested in the answer." I say.

"Well is there a reason she wanted to know?" He asks.

"She just said she was curious, but she told me she was lesbian today." I say.

"Ok, that's fine. She knows that we aren't upset about it right?" He asks.

"I told her and she said she figured we weren't because if we were, we'd have disowned her when we found out about Kenzie." I say.

"We wouldn't disown her, ever."

"I let her know that." I say.

I say before closing the dishwasher, "How was she feeling?" He asks.

"She looked pretty good today actually. I think her being home is helping her a lot right now." I say.

It seems like she's in a lot better of a headspace now that she's home. I'm just happy to see it. I'm not too sure why it is she's so happy, but I'm happy to see her that way. That's for sure.

"Was Bailey awake?" He asks.

"No she's still asleep but I think she will be for a while. She has gotten close to no sleep for a while and I know she's exhausted." I say.

"I don't think any of you got much sleep." He sighs.

"Not at all, but we're back home and things are slowly getting back to normal." I say.

"Well, Bella slept the best she has in a long time." He says.

"She was out last night, I noticed that. Usually she kinda kicks and squirms but she was extremely still last night." I say.

"Mhm."

"And she's still sleeping poor baby. She's worn out." I say.

"So do you happen to know where Ava is?" He asks.

"She claimed a friends house." I say.

"Do you believe it?" He questions.

I laugh, "Not even a little bit."

I know she's at Jacobs. She told me yesterday she was going to his house to see him and I don't believe she just left his house and stayed the night at a friends. I was a teenager once too, I know that she's staying at his house. It makes me laugh she thinks I'm that stupid though.

"I miss when she didn't have a boyfriend." He sighs.

"My parents said the same thing when we started dating you know?" I say.

"So what I'm hearing is I need to get used to it because it's likely she'll marry him?"

I shrug, "I don't know, that's a possibility you know."

As long as he treats her right, then I'm ok with the relationship. Ava's happy with him and always is beaming when she talks about him. Until I see the light leave her eyes when she talks about him, I have nothing against the relationship.

However, the absolute second I see her week down when talking about him that'll change. Because so know I'm that moment something's wrong because she's not happy. He won't have my support if he's just hurting my daughter.

"How the hell did they grow up so quickly?" He asks.

"I'm not sure, it's kinda hard to think about. It seems like just yesterday we were freaking out in the bathroom over a positive test. I don't know where the time went, it passed by so quickly." I say.

"Far too quickly."

I miss them being my little babies, I mean they always will be. No matter how old they get, they'll always be my babies. I just wish time went a bit more slow. They grew up before my eyes.

"Do you think they'll both still want to go to out of state college?" He asks.

"I'm trying not to focus on that right. Maya is still so far away form being able to go back to school and Ava has missed a lot too. I think we all need to sit down and have a conversation about what to do, but not right now. I don't want to upset either of them right now. I know they both want to go out of state, but I'm more scared now than I've ever been for that. Personally, I'd like them to do freshman year here at UCLA or somewhere else near by. Not out of state. I don't know though. I don't want to make an important choice for them and I don't want them to be upset with where they go either. They both worked hard and I don't want them to feel like it was all for nothing." I say.

"I agree." He says.

I hear the cries of Lucas and I head to the nursery and pick him up, "You've grown so much since I've held you last my little man. That's crazy how much bigger you've gotten." I whisper.

I smell the dirty diaper and carefully set him on the changing table. I unbutton his onesie and get him out of the dirty diaper. I wipe his bottom with a baby wipe and put him in a clean diaper.

"There you go little man. That's better huh?" I ask.

His cries continue and I tickle his stomach warning a smile before I kiss his cheek, "There's my happy boy." I say.

His hands reach for my hair and I pull it away before grabbing his hands and kissing them, "I've missed you so much." I say.

He giggles and I smile wider, "Look at that, you can giggle now. That's a pretty big milestone." I say.

I wipe the tears from his cheeks as her rolls onto his stomach, "Oh now I think you're trying to show off. You wanna show mommy all you can do now and break my heart because you're a big boy now huh?" I ask.

He looks to his brother sleeping in his crib, "Yeah your brothers still sleeping. You're a bit bored without him aren't you? You want him to wake up so that you can have tummy time and play huh?" I ask.

He looks at me and I gently move his hair from his forehead, "Yeah, I think so." I say.

I pick him up and carry him to the chair and I sit with him and just hold him in my arms. He stares up at me with his beautiful eyes and I caress his cheeks with my thumb, "My handsome little guy."

He gives me a tiny yawn and I feel my heart melt at the sight. It's adorable.

I hold him until he falls asleep and once he is, I put him back into his crib and check on Max. I hear his soft snores and then walk out of the nursery knowing that both of them are alright for now.

I'm sure it won't be long until they let out hungry cries, but for not at least, they are asleep. All the kids are fine and Wilmer mad I will have a bit of peace before the chaotic day plays out.