Lost... (AOT Levi x Fem!Reader)

Life after/Update

⚠️ Warning/Disclaimer! ⚠️
= Self harm

This chapter is about harming one's self so if you're uncomfortable with that just read till I say and then go to next chapter.
Please do Not try this! You are loved and you are special!

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It's been a few months and it's been... Nice... But also rough. We've been on a few expeditions. Luckily I've always protect my squad and a few other but that was nothing. Sometimes I would think of my best friends and I would have to keep myself from crying.

Luckily, my squad keeps it up beat and happy, sometimes annoying but it's okay. They're good people. I've also noticed in my heart locket is a picture of them. I guess this necklace is magic or something.

Training's been good too, I've become stronger and smarter. Also colder but my expression is soft, only when someone makes me angry my expression turns sour.

I've gotten paperwork too... Yay...
But it keeps me busy at night. I have (drum roll Please)... Insomnia. Yay!
(Rolls eyes)   { (눈‸눈)      =_= }

Yeah... Everytime I try sleeping I have nightmares and wake up in sweat and tears.

Yeah... Sleep is dead to me now... Unfortunately. And I use to love sleep!

But when I do get some sleep it's mostly just for an hour or 2, And that's mostly in the day! At night, not so much.

I've literally become the same as Levi! It's really frustrating! Thankfully, I'm not a clean freak... Okay, yes I am! Geez... It's annoying.

Anyway, I sit with my cadets at breakfast, lunch and dinner. Oh! Did I mention I don't eat that much as I use to? Yeah... I mean I still have my amazing bod and everything but I just look a little more thinner and muscular. (If you already do sorry)

(You have an amazing body! Don't judge yourself! You're beautiful the way you are!) Sorry just wanted to say that in case you thought you looked like someone with an eating disorder. If you do I'm sorry if I've offended you I didn't mean too.
(˘･_･˘)  (ꏿ﹏ꏿ;) (╥﹏╥)

Right now, I was taking a small break at the cafeteria. Drinking tea and reading a book. My comrades were training and so were the others. I know I should probably be drinking and reading in my office but I'm tired of seeing the same office all the time. Although having your own office is nice. Besides the lighting is too bright and I don't want to see the sun right now.

Thankfully, my office is very nice and clean (thanks to me). As I was reading and drinking, I didn't notice someone coming in and getting tea themselves. I was still reading until I heard someone sit down next to me. I didn't pay much attention since I wasn't interested and they probably don't even want to talk. Maybe they're just here for tea and peace too.

Whatever, I could care less.

"What are you reading?" A male voice asked.

I didn't look up from my book and only said," (Favorite/book)"

"Oh... And How's the paperwork treating you?" The male asked.

I was slightly surprised someone actually wanted to talk to me. To be honest... I haven't spoken to anyone other than my comrades after the expedition. I don't want to have more people to care about although I save most of them, but it's easier to not speak and keep busy. I think people have started to think I'm mute or unemotional or something...