Fragile [COMPLETED]

Fragile 1*

Fragile 1

“Do you have to leave me, mama?” naluluhang tanong ko. Nakaupo si mama sa kama. Ang kalahating katawan ay natabunan ng puting kumot. Ang mahinang katawan ay nakasandal sa headboard ng kama. She looks weak and she is weak.

“I might soon leave you, princess. I’m weak now. I can feel I’m fading slowly. " hinaplos nito ang maitim at malambot kong buhok gamit ang naghihina at nanginginig nitong kamay.

Hindi ko mapigilan ang pagtulo ng aking mga luha. She’s been with me since the day she gave birth to me, and I can’t imagine what I will become when she’s gone... when she’s not with me.

“ A princess doesn’t cry, Daenah. Don’t cry... " pinahid nito ang mga luha sa aking mukha. Sumakit ang aking dibdib sa bawat mahihinang bigkas ng boses nito.

“I’m no princess, mama…”

“Yes, you are, baby... You are my princess. "

“Can you not just leave me and be with me ‘til I grow old?” mahina itong natawa at naubo

“That is not my fate, princess… One day, someone will arrive— a prince. He will come to you and be with you until you grow old. I’m sorry that it’s not me. "

“Walang prince, mama. Walang darating. "

“Just wait for him, princess. Maybe he’s just busy slaying dragons for you to be safe. "

'No mama, a prince won’t do that. He has a knight to do that work, if he really exists. A prince doesn’t exist,’ gusto kong sabihin iyon kay mama pero may pumigil sa akin.

“He will save you, princess. He loves you. "

"But mama, I want you. You’re the only one that loves me. No one does... " I may sound like a brat for my age, but I don’t want her to let go.

“Your papa loves you, princess." Gusto kong matawa sa sinabi ni mama. I don’t really like my father.

He’s selfish, he’s arrogant, and he left me and my mom for money.

Umalis ito nang malamang buntis si mama sa akin at nagpakasal sa isang babae na mayaman. He gave us money and visited us twice a year, not even asking how we were doing. The only thing he's good at was insulting us how we lived our life. Kasama pa nito ang asawa nito na kung makapanlait din ay wagas.

He promised Mama a one-big happy family and yet he married another woman. Ang pangako na binitawan nito kay mama ay sa ibang babae nito tinupad. How cruel can he be? He conducts illegal business... tinatakan ng mga inosenteng tao para sariling kagustuhan. He loves his other children by his wife, but he can’t love me. I grew up hating him and wanting revenge for myself and my mom. I hate him so much. So much that I wanted him gone instead of Mama.

He loved his wife as if he didn’t loved my mama... Like he didn’t promise my mama that he would love her forever.

They live with lots of money.

They also live in a perfect family. Nagseselos ako sa kanila. Bakit sila lang ang masaya? Bakit hindi nila kami sinama ni mama? Kami naman ang na-una, ah!

“If he loves me, why isn't he here? He doesn’t love me, mama. I’m just an obligation to him. "

“He loves you… trust me princess. He does. " Umiling ako. Gusto ko pang magreklamo pero ayaw kong bigyan ng mabigat na kalooban ang mama.

“Princesses are loved by everyone. They love you because you are a princess. "

“I’m not a princess, mom.“

“Kind, brave, confident, humble, fair, loyal, strong, and faithful; those are the traits of a princess, and that’s you, Daenah. Always remember that. You are a princess, not because you don’t dress like one. It doesn’t mean you’re not. " Putol nito sa gusto ko pang sabihin

“And you are my queen, mama...” my mom smiled genuinely.

“And why is that?”

I pouted. Hindi na nito kailangan itanong kung bakit.

“Because you, my Queen, are my mama. Since I am your princess, and the mother of a princess is a queen, you are fearless, strong, and confident, and you fought for me. And most of all, you love me. "

Hinalikan ko sa noo ang reyna ng aking buhay. She gave me life, she raised me how to be like her… confident and strong. Ano nalang ang gagawin ko kung wala na siya? Hindi ko alam kung paano magising isang araw na wala na siya sa tabi ko. No prince can save me like how my mom saved me.

“How old are you now, my princess?”

“Mama naman! You forgot your daughter’s age? " Nagtatampong tanong ko. Natawa ito.

“Hmm?”

“I’m 18, mom!” tumango si mama.

“It’s okay now to leave and be on your own.

“Don’t say that, mama! It’s not okay... I’m not ready. I won’t be ready ever! "

“Don’t you want me to rest, princess?” natigilan ako.

“I’m tired now. I want to rest,” napaiyak ulit ako. Mama is so unfair. Leaving me behind and alone. Gusto ko mang sabihin iyon pero mas lalong maghihirap si mama. She’s tired and she’s weak.

Matagal na siyang naghihintay kung kailan siya sasaya. She’s happy when she had me but she’s not that happy to live for more longer years. Baka pwede...

P-pwede na siyang magpahinga. Baka pwedeng mauna siyang magpahinga sa akin, hindi pa naman ako pagod, kaya ko pa naman. Baka pwedeng ma-una siya... baka kaya ko na wala siya?

Sumakit ang lalamunan dahil sa pinipigilan kung hikbi. Ang dibdib ko ay bumigat. Ang aking mga mata ay sumasakit na. Kung gusto ko mang mauna si Mama dapat hindi ko ipapakita ang malungkot kong mukha para hindi na niya ako iisipin sa kanyang paglalakbay. I don’t want to let her go, but at the same time, I don’t want to be selfish. Gusto niyang maging masaya, pwede naman pagbigyan ko siya. I love my mama and I want her to be happy, even if it means leaving me alone.

“O-okay, my Queen. I am ready now. "

'I'm not. Will never be...'

“You can go to paradise and be happy!” pinilit ko ang sarili na hindi mapaiyak.

‘I’m going to miss you so much, mama. Wait for me in paradise. We will be together soon. '

“Always remember, Daenah. Princesses don’t cry. Don’t cry for me, princess. I want you to be happy. Live your life as you wait for your prince to come. I love you so much, my baby, " kahit anong pilit ko hindi ko pa rin napigilang umiyak. How can I not cry?

That is so impossible.

“This will be the last day that I will cry, mama. Just let me. " Naiintindihang tumango si mama.

Niyakap ko siya ng mahigpit. Ang mga payat at nanginginig nitong kamay ay humahaplos sa basa kong mukha at sa aking buhok. Nang binitiwan ko siya isang ngiti mula sa aking Reyna ang aking natanggap.

“I love you, mama.”

One last kiss from her in my forehead… one last kiss from that night. One last smile.

and…

She was gone the next morning. She went to paradise. I hope she’s happy now. Happy without me. She’s been longing for happiness. Happiness that she can’t get here.

"I will be strong here, Mama. I will be strong and no one will dare to hurt me. I won't cry. I won't give you any reason to worry about me. Because I’m not weak. "

I can follow her someday...