The Moon's Redamancy In Fall [Tsukishima x Yamaguchi]

eighteen.

Yamaguchi

I opened the door, greeting Tsukki a smile, his eyes looked slightly droppy and puffy from crying all night with a tint of red, his sweat shirt looked a bit baggy on him and pajamas hanging low on his waist. Tsukki looked a lot paler today, his lips chapped, slightly bleeding.

He rubbed his eyes using the back of his hand, making his glasses nudge up and down on his nose bridge, "Come on, mom's making lunch," Tsukki said as he emit a yawn, making his eyes watery.

My mind snap back up, "Lunch? What time is it?" I questioned him, predicting it maybe around one or two in the afternoon. I didn't even notice it was afternoon already since the sky was so gloomy.

I started to worry when I thought I was going to be late for school but quickly reminded myself that it's Saturday. Damn, I have to go home after lunch. My mom would start to worry about me.

"God, just come downstairs," He sighed, "My mom's already looking for you. She can't even trust me with you for one night," He taunted, rubbing the back of his neck, before striding down the hallway.

Tsukki's back to his old self. His stingy self, after last night of crying and weeping in my arms, it was obvious that he did not want to talk about anything that had happened last night.

When he showed me his heart I see a hero every time, for in that flash of emotional vulnerability he became so much more of his true self.

I let out a soft chuckle, "Okay, Tsukki," Snickering, I walked beside him.

Tsukki peered down at me, he studied me with scrutiny, and then his eyes averted real quick. As I observed, his brown eyes had softness in them, but he still looked like he had been sleep deprived. He looked exhausted beyond belief.

His brown eyes were hues of comforting childhood memories, as sweet as chocolate and as solid as the oak, but it was bitter as coffee. Those brown eyes were as polished amber in first rays of dawn, it was so beautiful but had been shattered for so many times and neither anyone did not know, but himself.

As Tsukki and I entered the dining room, I was greeted by the aroma of miso soup, fish and natto served by the table, it was neatly prepared for three people, Tsukki sat down, as he continued to rub his nape. I observed the room and figured it was just the three of us; Kaori-san, Tsukki and I.

Not long, Kaori-san entered the room with a wooden tray of sashimi and sushi. I could feel my stomach grumble by the sight of it and for some reason, I wanted to shove it all in my mouth.

"Akiteru and Akihiro could'nt join us for lunch because they had to run some errands," Kaori-san said, as she placed the tray down on the table, I took my seat and so did Kaori-san.

We all said our greetings and clasped our hands together, "Thanks for the food,"

Taking our own serving of foods on our plates and bowls, Tsukki had a small serving of rice, it almost looked like a baby's food because of how little it was.

Kaori-san pointed her chopstick towards the bowl of natto in front of Tsukki, "Kei, eat your natto," She demanded, but voice soft, still full of kindness.

Tsukki shrugged, "I don't want it," He mumbled, before taking a small portion of his rice and placing it in his mouth.

I frowned, "It's good for you," I tell him, taking the bowl of natto in my hand and putting a small amount on his plate.

Tsukki grimace but didn't protest, he looked a lot tired today. Most of the time, Tsukki tends to eat less, I observed his servings of food everyday, he doesn't like over eating but I'm always glad he wouldn't skip meals.

"So," Kaori-san started as we all ate our food, "How's your school lately, Tadashi?" She asked. Kaori-san looked a lot comfortable on her seat than the dinner yesterday, obviously because Akihiro-san was making it way to difficult to settle down.

I beamed at her, "It's fine. Good, actually, my friend, Yachi-chan and I are working on a Science project," I addressed.

"That's good," She nodded, leisurely chewing her food after a few seconds of realization, "Oh, did you like the bento box I prepared for you?"

I blink, trying to recall if she had made me one. I was pretty drunk last night, when I was not able to muster any memory, I slowly shook my head.

After a few seconds of staring at Kaori-san with my eyebrows in a deep furrow, face recoiled in confusion, Tsukki had a convulsion of involuntary coughing from choking on his own food making Kaori-san looked a bit agitated.

"Tsukki!" I exclaimed, handing him a glass of water.

Tsukki swiftly grabbed the glass from my hand, and did not waste any second, as he immediately took the glass towards his lips and took big gulps of water to surpress the food stuck in his throat, small ragged gasps were escaping his throat.

Kaori-san raised her brow towards Tsukki, "Kei," She said, carefully.

Tsukki finished the entire glass and wiped his lips using the back of his hand, stiffening his body, "I did give it to him!" He protested, sounding a bit defensive.

Give what?

His shoulders hunched, his eyes averting away from his mom, "But to Hinata . . ."

Realization fell on my face as I remembered Hinata-kun and Kageyama-kun eating the bento box . . . Wait, that was from Kaori-san?

"Kei! I told you to give it to Tadashi," Kaori-san scolded Tsukki, with her brows forming a deep furrow.

"I didn't know," Tsukki shrugged his shoulders nonchalantly, "He was going to eat with Yachi, so I thought he wouldn't need it anymore," Tsukki defended, explaining himself but his voice grew lazy.

I tried emitting a chuckle but failed miserably, "I would've happily accepted it," I giggled.

Tsukki rolled his eyes, "I didn't know," He repeats himself.

Kaori-san peered at me with apologetic eyes, "Tadashi, please do forgive me for Kei's attitude, I'll just prepare you another," She bowed herself to me.

I raised my hand and shook my head, "Kaori-san, it's okay!" I exclaimed, smiling at her.

The afternoon went by quickly until we all finished the foods on our plate, Kaori-san proceeded to ask me about things and it took me a while to realize that I had been gone from here for too long, I missed everything about this household as a matter of fact it is pretty much my entire childhood. My mom and Kaori-san would always hang out, too when Tsukki and I were still kids.

Tsukki sighed on his seat before slumping down, "I'm going to take a shower," He mumbled before peering at me, "If you're about to go home, just leave me a message if you got home," Tsukki added before standing up to his feet and left the dining room.

It made me feel a bit happy that Tsukki finished his food. I wanted to talk to him more but I understand if he didn't want to. Kaori-san started to pile up the plates and bowls, her sleeves went up a bit showing the scars that had become a narrow thread of silver that glowed in the sunlight.

My stomach churned from how deep the scars were. My eyes started brimming hot tears as my mind started to doze off from the memories last night, I pursed my lips together and looked away.

Kaori-san seemed to pause from fixing the dishes as she cleared her throat, "Tadashi . . ." She mumbled, her voice so little and soft.

I catched Kaori-san a glimpse and her face studied my expression with scrutiny, "Whatever Kei told you last night," She breathe, her hands slightly shaking, "Please never mention anything to your mom about it,"