The Moon's Redamancy In Fall [Tsukishima x Yamaguchi]

fourty-one.

Yamaguchi

"Yachi-san couldn't come tonight, she told me she'll be having dinner with her mom and her co-workers," I spoke, timidly as I plopped down the couch, sinking further as I felt my exhaustion all at once.

My mom peeked from the kitchen, "That's okay, you can invite her tomorrow, dinner," She smiled.

By the way Yacchan's name came out of my mouth stung my eyes with tears, I felt my heart sunk and I feel like crying a bucket of tears, guilt killing me slowly inside, I buried my face on my hands as I let out a low groan. This entire thing is so frustrating. What the fuck have I done?

Tsukki gave me a handjob in our fucking classroom.

How the fuck do I take that off of my mind?

A deep heave of a heavy sigh escaped my lips as I closed my eyes, the memory plastered on my brain as if I was suffering from brain corruption from Tsukki's low grunts and moans replayed over and over in my mind.

It felt so unreal. But it happened, and I won't be able to deny that. This is all my fault. I shouldn't have kissed him. Yacchan, my mom and dad and all the people who knows that I have a girlfriend, what would be their reaction if they find out that I-

My mom's voice cut my train of thoughts, "You seemed extra exhausted today? Did something happened in school?" She asked, as if she was genuinely concerned about it - but she never was.

I shrugged my shoulders nonchalantly, "Not much . . ." I skittishly remarked, "Uh . . . We won the Science Fair,"

She placed a cup of tea in front of me, "That's great, honey," She quickly responded, her voice bored and uninterested, she was completely distracted on her phone.

Her eyebrows raising in realization, completely changing the topic, "Oh, your dad's planning to get me a pair of earrings," She gushed, before shoving her phone in front of my face to show me different kind of rocks.

"Which one do you think I should get? The ruby one or the emerald? I think the quartz is very pre-"

"Mom, I don't wanna talk about your rocks," I sighed, standing up from my seat, as I took my jacket from the couch.

"Tadashi, they are not rocks they are gems-"

And then, she pulled the last straw, "Mom, can you shut the fuck up?"

Her face twisted in horror, as a bloodcurdling gasp fell on her lips, "Tadashi! Your mouth!"

Damn, even I was surprise I could actually say that. After sixteen years of my existance, for the first time, holy shit, it feels like I orgasmed all over again by saying that one sentence to her.

My mom's face turned red as her nostrils flared in plethora of rage, her eyebrows formed a deep furrow as she tried concealing her anger.

"And what about my mouth?" I spat, as I grimace towards her.

My mom stood up from her seat, too and was too shocked to even form coherent sentences, "I am telling this to your dad! I knew Kaori's son was a bad influence to you!" She scoffed, her snotty contempt making my blood boil.

"Go ahead and tell that to your husband as if he would fucking care!" I yelled, as I earned a slap from her hard palms. The way her palm connected on my cheek stung painfully, it made my eyes watery.

My mom's breathing became rigid, "What the hell happened to my son?"

And with that, I gave her a death glare and didn't respond anymore, too angry to even argue with her, I heard that loud ringing in my ears again, I felt my body fuming, I stomped away from the living room and ran to my bedroom.

I yelled once again, "Fuck you and dad!" And with that I swung my door with all the strength that's left in me into a loud bang, shaking the walls of the house.

"FUCK! FUCK!" I screamed my lungs out until my heart's content. Tears started to stream down my cheeks, I felt my heart breaking into pieces as I felt that weird fluttering in my chest, again. I feel like I was losing oxygen.

I thought I was brave enough to tell my mom that I don't love Yachi-san and that I love Tsukki. I always have. What's the point of denying it anyway?

Oh, I fucking know,

I didn't want to hurt Yachi.

Fuck.

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FILLER CHAPTER YA'LL. I NEEDED TO WIND UP BECAUSE WRITING CALMS ME DOWN AND THIS ENTIRE CHAPTER SUMS UP WHATEVER I AM FEELING RN LMFAO. let me live.（ノT＿T)ノ ＾┻━┻